Sanegiyuu

Chapter 1

(uwaa sorry I didn't posted early!
Warning: there's some self harm and panic attacks! Please skip this chapter dear!)

Giyuu 's pov:

I stared at my wounded wrist that I made

Then my crow suddenly flew towards me

"Go to the hashira meeting...." My crow weakly said and rest on top of my desk

I sat up and covered my wrist with my uniform and haori

Ever since sabito died...I started to hurt myself so I won't feel anything.

That's good..right?

I'm not the weak boy who always cries..
I'm..just a weak man who doesn't feel anything...

That's good ..
That's what sabito wants...
That's what tsukato wants...

My mouth feels so dry..
Even tho I already drank water it stills feels dry..

I dashed out of my- no..sabito's estate..

When I finally get there I met some disappointed stares

'i already get it...I don't deserve to be here but please don't look at me like that...' I thought as I pulled my haori out of anxiousness

"You're late tomioka!" I heard shinazugawa said and glared at me

I just looked away

"Ara ara~ tomioka-san isn't it rude to ignore someone hm?" I heard kocho

"G-guys..please don't say any of that! He looks worn out.." I heard kanroji

"Ara ara~ did kanroji just insulted tomioka-san?" Kocho laughed

"E-eh! I didn't mean it like that!! He just looks tired that's it!! Wait is that an insult?!" Kanroji panicked

I just ignore them since I don't deserve to talk to such....strong people..

"Don't worry kanroji! I bet that tomioka doesn't take it that way! " Rengoku reasurred kanroji

Rengoku is right I didn't take it that way but what shinobu added made me insecure more..

Then master was accompanied with two girls walked in

We all immediately showed respect

"Good morning my children....today is a beautiful day isn't it? Today there's nothing I want you all to do" master smiled calmly

"Do you mind if I ask something master.." I heard iguro

"Speak my child.."

"Why are we here exactly if there's nothing for us to do?" He asked

"Ah..well there is but its not a mission..I want you all to do some bonding since I heard rumors that the water hashira isn't really talking to anyone.. is it true?" Master asked me

I looked down and said "well I do talk to them...if it's important..."

I heard some of them scoffed and sighed

"I see..well..that's what today is..I want all of you to take at least a days off from slaying demons and celebrate a good friend mine their wedding " master said

"But master what about if there's a demon attacking someone?" Gyomei asked

"From what I heard only weak demons came out which were defeated easily..so no need to worry about that..also please do wear something nice to the wedding you guys will be going there for 2 days since it's far so pack" master answered