insanity.

why are you being so harsh with me?

"No, i don't think you get it, im cutting ties, you're fucking toxic."

My heart sank as I watched those few words cause my world to fall apart. All that time. gone.

I'm not even really toxic. I have problems and I'm bad, yeah, but toxic people don't feel bad for what they've done.

I do.

And I'm trying to change.

But it's too late.

They're tired of me.

They're tired of my shitty mental health.

AND NOW I'M TRYING TO CHANGE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T GIVE A FLYING RAT'S ASS ABOUT ME.

It seems like they never meant it when they told me they'd always be here, that they cared.

Why don't they care?

I thought I meant something.

I thought I meant more than I actually did.

Silly me.

But I'm always being silly aren't i?

I'm always a silly fucking idiot.

I don't mean anything to them, heck it feels like I only mattered to Tommy.

And at the time, i was fucking pissed at him.

Why did only he care?

I thought I mattered to them.

But I only mattered a little to Tommy.

Why does he care?

I doubt he still does.

I was pissy to him.

But he was harsh to me.

And I'm sensitive.

So, of course, that question arose.

"Why are you being so harsh with me?"