Most relationships don't work out because they don't communicate enough, it can be because of fear.
I wonder if he cried, at least once after he left me.
I wonder if I didn't lie he would've still left me
Maybe if I communicated with him, but yet I wonder if in the end he would've still left me.
I have so many questions I want to ask him, so many what ifs, so many maybes.
If he answered all of my questions, would I be able to move on or would it make this harder for me.
I wonder if he went through what I felt. The feeling of hurt, the way I tried to smile, I tried to laugh just so I would see him happy. Maybe he didn't even notice.
Though I noticed. I noticed every small detail, I remember the hurt, the way I "sacrificed" my health just so he would be happy.
But maybe doing that just made it worse, maybe if I asked for help, maybe if I didn't do it alone. Would it change anything? Would he still be here? Or maybe if he was still here I would still be hurting.
I wonder how he is doing now, is he fine? Did I help? Or did I make it worse, maybe I am the reason he cries. I doubt, I could feel he was in love with someone else. That someone wasn't me.
