Innie did it again | skz

23.) i'm sorry

a/n:
TW: mentions of a past suicide (a character that will never come up again)

PLEASE READ END NOTES

sung-Minho

sung:
hyungg

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Minho:
You don't have special treatment Sung
You have to wait just like everyone else

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sung:
:(

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Minho:
...
Fine

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sung:
:DDDDDDD

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Minho:
Ughhhhh
(a/n: lino angst lino lore cherrie has no ideas and decided to make Minho a backstory)

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Minho:
Growing up I wasn't exactly the best kid ever
I broke a lot of rules and didn't really care about anything
At all.

Minho:
So at school it was even worse
I was reckless, rude
Just all in all a asshole

Minho:
There was this kid
His name was Minwoo
I used to pick on him a lot
I just didn't like him.
He was really well known around the school and everyone knew he was gonna get far in life
He wasn't only perfect he was cocky about it
Bragging, showing off
I thought he deserved a little tease

Minho:
So I continued. I did this for years
We grew up together
I kinda learned to like the kid
He wasn't as bad as I thought
I didn't let him know that though
So I just kept picking on him
Every moment I got

Minho:
One day in class he was really pushing my buttons
He said something that really pissed me off
So much I yelled *very* loud at him
I don't remember what I said
But I do remember him running out of the class in tears
I felt a little bad but not that bad
He deserved it.

Minho:
I didn't hear from him the rest of the day
I didn't think much of it
I got home, slept, woke up the next day getting ready for school
I sat in class noticing he wasn't there
The teacher made an announcement
He killed himself Sung
He killed himself and the last thing I yelled to him I don't even remember

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sung:
Hyung
I'm sorry.
Really sorry.

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Minho:
Wow, even the capital letters huh?

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sung:
I don't really know what to say I'm sorry

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Minho:
It's alright
It's a lot

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sung:
So that's why you freeze up when you yell at someone?

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Minho:
It's not horrible flashbacks I don't panic or anything
I just get a little reminder

yelling doesn't do anything

It won't help what already happened

Minho:
I realized
You hate getting yelled at and I hate yelling
Maybe this is why we get along so well

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sung:
I really want to give you a big hug

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Minho:
My door is always open for you Sung

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sung:
Coming now

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a/n: holy shit ( ゜▽゜) i did not mean for it to go that way. well fuck.
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a/n: i also just wanted to put out there that the kid did not off himself because of Minho of course Minho's teasing didn't help but he was already really depressed.
Minho never knew it (he still doesn't) i don't think he ever will.
he just thinks it could've been because of him since he didn't/doesn't know the kid was depressed.

i'm really making him live with this guilt damn i may be the worst.

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