With Pain Comes Love 3

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***"...If you looking for love know that love don't live here anymore. He left with my heart. They both walked through that door without me. If you trying to find pity well you need to look somewhere else. Cause I surely can't help you, I'm hurting myself. I've turned into someone else..."***

-Yaya
I got to work and have been smiling and chatting with some of my customers and getting new business. My sister flew in this morning and came straight to the gallery, she was helping me out and also because she just wanted to get away from Durban even if it was for a week. She was on the floor while I handled some calls from my clients which I had neglected ever since Yasy's death. I was back in business by full force and there was no stopping me, I worked through lunch busy talking on the phone while eating. Thanks to my sister or it wouldn't have been done. Asemahle stormed into my office. She looked like she had been crying. I told the person I would call them back and so I ended the call and put the phone down.
Me: Mahle
Her: why didn't you tell me?
I looked at her expecting her to be a little more specific. What was she talking about? What is it that I didn't tell her?
Me: you'll have to be a little more specific sis
Her: Yaya you could have told me
Me: Asemahle I seriously have no idea what you are talking about right now
I was now standing in front of her and this person was now crying. What could be so bad that I didn't tell her that would make her cry the way she was crying now. I just puller her into my arms because it felt like the right thing to do.
Her: he raped you
She said in between her tears. I kept quiet and tried to think of what to say next.
Her: why didn't you tell me Yandiswa? Three whole weeks you've been suffering this in silence
I kept quiet. So Melo told her because I know I haven't told anyone. I broke the hug and wiped her tears away.
Me: Asemahle I'm fine
Her: No Yandiswa how can you be fine? He's your husband, he was wrong to do that to you I don't care what the matter was but he had no right to
Me: Mahle
Her: Yaya I'm so sorry he did that to you. Please tell me you going to leave him Yandiswa
kept quiet. I haven't had the time to actually think about where to from here. I mean one thing for sure is that I am mad at him but I've also wronged him. NO I'm not justifying what he did but all I'm saying is that there's a lot at stake here. I don't want Melo and I to be added to the stats of marriages that end after having lost a child. Melokuhle violated me sexually and as much as it hurt but at the same time I still love him. Despite it all I am still in love with him. I don't know what it would take for me to walk out on him considering the amount of times I've been hurt by this man. I sat her down and took her hands into mine
Me: Asemahle your parents cannot find out about this
She looked at me like I was retarded or something
Me: hear me out please. You know how they are, Melo would lose everything
Not that the world revolves around me or whatever but truth be told, his mother was molested as a child and her husband was ready to murder the woman who put his wife through that as a child, and then there's Asemahle who was raped, I wasn't around then but what I know is that Kevin died in prison because they made sure that the nigga was locked up in a cell with a person who pleasured himself with Kevin whenever he felt like it. So I don't know what exactly killed him but the guy is dead. Coming to my point, Melokuhle is their son yes but they would strip him of everything he has and I don't want that to happen to him. I care about the guy... shoot me.
Her: I can't believe you would defend him. You sound like a woman in an abusive relationship right now. Yandiswa what happens if he does it again huh?
Me: if he does it again then we'll involve your parents and have him lose everything he has. Asemahle please just let me handle my marriage the only way I know how
Her: no wonder Melo does the things he does
Me: what's that supposed to mean?
Her: that you're a fool for him and I'm worried that this man will be the death of you. I know he's my brother and all but best believe that I don't want you to be added to the list of woman that have died because of him.
Asemahle had a point. What if me staying leads to the death of me? My doctor/therapist already thinks I might be depressed and I'm taking pills for it but I don't want to get to a point where I become suicidal. Maybe I should just leave Melo.
Her: please think about yourself just this once and imagine if you would have wanted Yasmin to stay with a man who did her the way Melo did you. Just think about it.
With that she took her things and left. After her talk with me I got up and packed my shiit and went to see my therapist. I told her about Melo coming back and I told her about the conversation or whatever that was that was between Asemahle and I and she fully agreed with Asemahle, said maybe leaving was for the best or just take some time apart from him and see how things go.
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-Melo
I decided to leave early and just head home. I passed by the mall to get something to cook and to just pass time and I opted for something quick which I know Yaya would love.
"Melo hi"
A voice of a woman said behind me, I turned and she was smiling. She was pretty no doubt but how does she know me?
Me: Hi....
Her: Jenny. Jeanine
Me: uhhm hi Jenny
Her: where have you been hiding? You said you would call and you never did? Did I do something wrong?
Me: uhhhm...
I was super confused. She seemed like a nice sweet girl but I didn't know her at all.
Me: Please remind me how we know each other?
Her: we met at the club 3 weeks' back
Me: club?
Her: you were pretty wasted so its fine I understand and I won't hold it against you but you do however owe me lunch
Me: uhhm Jeanine is it? I am married and my wife wouldn't be comfortable with me taking some woman out for lunch
Her: I think we way past that stage. After what happened that night
Me: what happened that night? I really don't remember shiit
Her: we had sex in my car and you took my number
SHIIT! I'm really fucked right now.
Me: oh
Her: yeah... So lunch tomorrow?
Me: yeah sure
She grabbed my phone
Me: what are you doing?
Her: calling myself so I have your number
Me: oh
She did so and then handed me my phone and kissed my cheek before walking away. I am really fucked right now. I locked my phone and looked at my cheek for any lipstick marks. You never know with these lipsticks you ladies put. Yaya uses the expensive ones that don't stain my shirts or cheeks... so yeah. I bought the little things I was there to buy and drove home. When I got in the yard she was getting out of her car with her work things, I parked next to her and took out the groceries and headed in after her. No one was saying anything to the other. I packed the groceries in their respective places and then went to fetch my bags in the car and went to put them in our room. She was sitting on the couch with her face buried in her hands.
Her: I did something stupid yesterday
I kept quiet.
Her: I slept with Thomas. I'm sorry
I still kept quiet
Her: I don't want us to end things on a secretive note. I already hate myself enough. I'll sleep at a hotel tonight
I still didn't say anything. I could feel my blood boiling on a maximum. How could she sleep with that guy of all people? She knows he wants her and then she goes on and gives him reason to want to stay in her life. She got up and went into the closet, I'm guessing she was going to pack up something or whatever. I followed her to the closet
Me: where is he?
Her: Mel...
Me: his address Yandiswa
Her: no
I chuckled in disbelief.
Me: Yandiswa where does this guy stay?
Her: why? So you can go beat him up? No Melo
Me: don't be stupid Yandiswa
She turned to me
Her: you'll just have to find him yourself
Me: so what? This is you protecting your boyfriend
Her: boyfriend?
Me: Just tell me where he lives and we won't have any trouble
Her: just drop it Melokuhle
I think what got to me the most was how calm she was about this whole thing.
Me: don't fucking test me Yandiswa. No wife of mine will hoe around
She didn't say anything, instead she closed the zip of her bag
Me: ulihule ngoku (so you're a slut now)?
Her: excuse me?
Me: you going to him aren't you?
Her: keep calling me a slut and I might just go to him
It took all of me not to slap the daylights out of her. How she goin sleep with another guy and then come and disrespect me under my roof? She walked out of the closet with her things, I followed behind her and grabbed her arm
Her: Let go of me
Me: give me his address
She chuckled, she was getting pissed. Her phone rang on the bed and his name popped up, I got to it before she could and threw it against the wall and it broke. I walked out and took my phone and car keys and left to find this guy. I called up my cousin to tell me where to find him and she sent me his address. He lived in an apartment. I got to his door and banged on it, he opened and I threw a punch at him
Him: what th...
I threw another one and he crouched holding his jaw. I threw a few more and they sent him to the floor and I got on top of him and kept hitting. All the anger I had was leaving my body with every punch. He tried fighting back but I guess I was stronger. I felt someone try pulling me
"Melokuhle get off of him you going to kill him"
That was no doubt Yandiswa's voice, I don't get why she was defending the guy. She kept trying to pull me off him and I pushed her off me and continued hitting until I had no strength left in me. I got off him and his face was barely recognizable. She went up to him and put her fingers on his neck to probably check for a pulse
Me: he's not dead if that's what you want to know
Her: he could get you arrested you know that
She took his phone and dialed the ambulance number
Me: I don't care
Her: well I do
Me: save me the bullshit.
I got up and left her talking to the receptionist probably or someone who could be of service. I drove home and everything was as I had left it. Her iPhone barely looked like an iPhone