After (Larry Version)

~*Chapter 60*~

I've never been very athletic, but my adrenaline is in full effect and I push my legs to go faster. I reach the end of the street, but begin to tire. Where the hell am I gonna go? I don't remember the path that I walked back to my dorm last time, and I stupidly left my phone in my room. To prove a point. About my independence from Harry. Harry, who's chasing me and yelling, "Louis, stop! And I do stop. I stop dead in my tracks. Why am I even running from him? He needs to explain why he keeps playing games with me.
"What did Zayn say to you?"
What? When I turn around to face him, he is only a few feet away and has a shocked expression,he didn't actually expect I would stop.
"What, Harry ! What could you possibly want from me?" I scream. My heart is pounding from running, and from him breaking it.
"I..." He seems to be at a loss for words for once. "Did Zayn say something to you?"
"No... why would he?" I take another step forward so I am face-to-face with him, my anger rolling off me in waves."

"I'm sorry, okay?" he says quietly. He looks into my eyes and reaches his hand out to take mine, but I swat it away. He ignores my question about Zayn but I am too mad to care.

"You're sorry? You're sorry?" I repeat, my voice coming out in a laugh.
"Yeah, I am."
"Go to hell, Harry." I begin to walk away, but he grabs my arm again. My anger boils over and my hand flies up and smacks him, hard. I am as surprised by my own violence as he is, and I almost want to apologize for hitting him, but the pain he's caused me is so much more than a cuff on the cheek.
His hand moves to his face, slowly rubbing over the red skin of his cheek. He looks at me, anger and confusion stirring behind his eyes.
"What the hell is your problem? You were the one kissing Zayn!" he yells. A car passes and the driver stares but I ignore him. I don't care about causing a scene right now.

"You're not seriously trying to blame me! You lied to me and played me like a fool, Harry! Just when I thought I could trust you, you humiliate me! If you wanted to be with Molly, why not just tell me to leave you alone? No, instead, you feed me that bullshit about wanting more and beg me to stay the night with you just so you can use me! What was the point—what did you get out of it—oh, besides a blow job?" I scream. The word tastes odd coming out of my mouth.
"What? You think that's what I am doing? You think I'm using you?" he shouts."

"No, that's not what I think, Harry —that's what I know. But guess what? I'm done, I am so beyond done. I'll change dorms if I have to so I don't have to see you again!" I say, and mean it. I don't need any of these people making my life worse.
"You're overreacting," he says flatly, and it takes everything in me not to slap him again.

"I'm overreacting? You didn't tell your friends about us—you didn't tell me about this party, and then you left me standing in the parking lot like a dumbarse while you left with Molly, of all people! Then I show up here to find Molly on your lap, and then you kiss her. Right in front of me, Harry . I'd say my reaction is quite justified," I say, my voice drawing to a whisper at the end, exhausted. I wipe fresh tears from my face and blink up at the night sky.
"You kissed Zayn right in front of me! And I didn't tell you about the party because I don't have to! You wouldn't have wanted to come anyway—you would have been too busy studying or watching the damn paint dry," he barks."

"I look at his blurry form through my watery eyes and ask him simply, "So why even waste your time with me? Why even follow me out here, Harry?" When he doesn't say anything, I have my answer. "That's what I thought. You thought you could come out here and say sorry and I would accept and stay a secret, your boring little hidden boyfriend. You're wrong, you took my kindness for weakness and you were sadly mistaken."
"Boyfriend? You thought you were my boyfriend?" he howls."

"The pain in my chest is magnified by a thousand and I can barely stand. "No... I," I start to say. I don't know what to say.
"You did, didn't you?" he says, laughing.
"You know... I did," I admit. I am already humiliated, so I have nothing to lose. "You fed me that bullshit about wanting more, and I believed you. I believed all the shit you said to me, all the things you claimed to never tell anyone, but I'm sure that was all bullshit, too. I'm sure none of that even happened." I shrug, giving up completely. "But you know what? I'm not even mad at you, I'm mad at myself for believing it. I knew how you were. I'm mad at myself for believing it. I knew how you were before I started to fall for you. I knew you would hurt me. What were your words, You'll destroy me? No, ruin, you'll ruin me. Well, congratulations, Harry, you won," I sob.
Pain flashes in his eyes... well, what looks like pain. It is probably humor.
I no longer care about winning or losing or playing these exhausting games. I turn away from him again and begin to walk back toward the house, figuring I'll find someone's phone to use to call Liam or somehow get a ride back to the dorms."

"Where are you going?" he asks. It hurts that he doesn't have anything to say, that he has offered me no explanation. He has only confirmed what I already knew, that he is heartless.
I walk faster, ignoring him. He trails behind me, calling my name a couple more times, but I refuse to let myself be charmed by his voice again.
When I get back to the house's front steps, of course I spot Molly's pink hair outside. "Aww, look, she is waiting for you. You two really are perfect for each other," I call over my shoulder to Harry's ."

"It's not like that and you know it," he grumbles.
"I don't know anything, obviously," I snap and climb two steps at a time.
Zayn appears in the doorway, and I rush to his side. "Can I use your phone? Please?" I beg and he nods.
"Are you okay? I tried to go after you, but you were long gone," he says and I nod.
Harry stands in front of Zayn and me while I call Liam and ask him to pick me up. Zayn and Harry stare at each other for a second when they hear me say Liam's name, then Zayn looks away and back down at me. "Is he coming?" he asks, his voice full of concern."

"Yeah, he will be here in a few minutes. Thank you for letting me use your phone," I tell him, ignoring Harry .
"No problem. Do you want me to wait with you?" he asks.
"No, I will wait with him," Harry injects, his voice full of venom.
"I would love it if you could wait with me, Zayn," I say and walk back down the steps with him. Harry , being the arsehole that he is, follows us and stands behind us awkwardly. Nick, Vanessa , and Molly trickle down, too.
"Are you okay?" Nick asks.
"Yeah," I say, nodding. "I'm leaving, though. I shouldn't have even come here."

When Nick hugs me, Molly mutters under her breath, "You got that right."
My head snaps around at the sound of her voice. I hate confrontation usually, but I hate Molly even more. "You're right! I shouldn't be here. I'm not as adept as you at getting drunk and hanging all over every guy in the place."
"Excuse me?" she says.
"You heard me."
"What's your problem? Mad that I kissed Hardin? Because, guess what, sweetie, I kiss Hardin all the time," she brags."

"I feel the blood draining from my face. I look at Hardin, who doesn't say anything. So he's been messing with Molly the entire time? This doesn't surprise me as much as it should. I don't even have a comeback for her. I try to think of something to say back, anything really, but I can't. I'm sure as soon as I walk away I will think of ten replies, but right now I have nothing.
"Let's go inside..." Vanessa suggests and grabs Molly and Nick by their arms. I try to give her a thankful smile as they start to go.
"You too, Harry . Get away from me," I say and stare at the street.
"I haven't kissed her, I mean lately. Except for tonight. I swear," he says.
Why is he saying this in front of them?
Molly turns around.
"I don't really give a shit who you kiss. Now get away from me," I repeat.
A huge wave of relief washes over me as I see Liam's car pull up. "Thanks again," I tell Zayn .
"No problem, don't forget what we talked about," he says hopefully, reminding me of our supposed "date."

"Louis ..." Harry calls as I step toward the car. When I ignore him, he calls louder. "Louis !"
"I have said everything I have to say to you, Harry . I am done listening to you and your bullshit—now leave me the fook alone!" I scream, turning around to face him. I am aware everyone's eyes are on us, but I have had enough.
"I... Louis , I..."
"You what? You what, Harry?" I scream even louder."

"I... I love you!" he yells.
And all the air disappears from my lungs.
And Molly sounds like she is choking.
And Nick looks like he's seen a ghost.
And for a few moments everyone just stands there, like something alien has passed by us and left us frozen. When at last I can speak, I say quietly, "You're sick, Harry , you're really fooking sick."
Despite the fact that I know this is part of his game, it still awakens something inside me to hear those words come off his lips. I grab for the door handle on Liam's car but I am yanked away by Harry."

"It's true, I do. I know you won't believe me, but I do. I love you." His eyes brim with tears. His lips press in a hard line and he covers his face with his hands. He takes a step back, then another forward, and when he takes his hands away, his green eyes appear sincere, full of panic.
Harry... he's a better actor than I thought. I can't believe he is doing this in front of everyone.
I shove him backward and open the car door, locking it before Harry regains his balance. As Liam drives off, Harry bangs his hands against the window, and I put my hands over my face so he doesn't see me cry."

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AN-While rewriting this I can't believe how much I've forgotten and I've read these books at least 4 times.