Vent book 3

10-you dont get it

Gosh this is a very, very different thing. I am going to warn you to stop right now if you don't want to read about being raped. Please leave right now or skip if you cant handle this topic.

I always think of something so often. People always think oh she is ok its just some bad things that happened like losing family and stuff. Well no its not. I have been r*ped. I don't usually talk about it 'cuz it is a sensative topic for me, I mean almost for everyone it is. I don't even know how many of my friends have brought up being r*ped to me. I never really talk about it though and now I really have to do something about it. I feel horrible for the people who had to go through or are going through this. Being r*ped is horrible and I never want it to happen to me again. I mean my step brother had r*ped me when I was between the ages 6-11 maybe. Yeah a while. I hope none of you have or ever will go through this. It is not a good thing. I wish I never went through it to be honest. I wish I could have just had a normal life but nope I had to be r*ped.. Gosh I am going to cry this topic is just... Cr*p... my siblings honestly are crazy.. they want to see him again, I have decided to never see him again. It will hurt but he literally made me scared of so, so many things. Like love... I am scared of being in relationships cuz him, I am scared they will do what he did to me... He made me scared of people, family, relationships, and so many other things. I know this is harsh but I really, really hate him...

I hope no one has to go through this ever...

For the people that have I am so, so sorry...

Here comes my stupid tears again...