Finding A New...

Breaking Me

Remember how I said I have social anxiety? Well I'm opening up to Dana and anyone with social anxiety knows how hard that shit is. I mean it's so nerve wrecking!, but I don't know. With her it doesn't seem that bad. It's almost like im talking to myself in a way but im not. She understands me and listens. She says she's going to "break me out of my shell.". I don't know it's like she actually cares, but I'll never really know if she does. I have a prom coming up and she's going with her friend Laysian, but im not sure who im going with. We had a conversation about it she was talking about how fun it would be to just dance and let loose with me and some friends and I told her l don't dance in public. So she hit me with that " What!? Aren't you a dancer!?" I replied back yes... because I am one, but I'm on of those dancers who doesn't dance in public. I know some you reading this understands me, but then she hit me with the " but it would be prom night! You're dancing! I don't care! I'm breaking you out your shell!" I couldn't help but find myself laughing like crazy and smiling non stop. I dont do that often with people who aren't my family. I dont know what is happening to me... I dont know what this feeling is, but it's something I dont want to stop. I hope it never stops. I just want it to evolve and evolve and evolve in something so big and beautiful that neither one of us can barely think straight when we see eachother. I know this probably sounds like a crush but it totally not a crush... I think. I wonder if she has a crush on me..? Hmm