talk to me

doctors..

(mentions of rape ⚠️)

i woke back up.

i was in a hospital bed.

i rubbed my eyes and sat up.

or tried to sit up.

an aching pain stopped me from doing so.

"ow shit" i say grabbing my side.

i took a big deep breath before sitting up using my hands.

no one was in the room with me.

just me.

i picked up my phone which was on the table beside me

i remember what happened last night pretty vividly.

i check out my wrists.

big purple hand prints wrapped around them.

i pulled out my camera.

i had one big black eye.

but nothing my hurt as much as i side.

i wanted to check it out but it was bandaged.

why would kurt do that?

i risked probably my entire career for him..

i sighed.

i mean i'm smart enough to figure out right?

if i figured out why he killed his parents i could figure out why he tried to kill me.

no matter what any officer says.

when i heal.

i'm getting him back.

i need to know what goes through his head.

i layed back down and closed my eyes.

                                 ~2 hours later~

i was woken by jack.

i groaned and rubbed my eyes.

"your awake! you lost so much blood" he says.

"i-im fine" i said.

"oh god your wrists.. and your face! kurt is so messed up.. i told you you shouldn't have let him in your house!" he says.

"jack, ik.. i should have listened. but i do what i want and you can't tell me otherwise. that's why when i heal i'm getting him again." i said.

"hell no y/n." he says.

"yes i am! i'll just follow the rules this time" i said.

it wasn't to hard to convince him to let me do what i wanted.

"fine." he says.

"i'll check on you tmr. the doctor said that you just had to stay the night." he says

"ok, i'll see you tmr" i said before going on my phone.

i scrolled on tiktok for about 10 minutes till the doctor came in.

she was young but not as young as me.

she smiles

"you must be y/n! your so brave standing up to a killer like that. i could never imagine.." she says.

i smile "haha thank you"

"he missed all vital organs so technically you'll be ok. it'll take awhile to heal fully tho" she says
.

i nod.

"very brave mrs. l/n... i head he raped and then tried to kill you.." she says sitting down getting gloves on.

"what? rape?" i asked.

she looks at me confused.

"yeah rape? isn't that what happened? bc that's to what he admitted to." she said.

"no? i'm not gonna let him seem like a worse person then he actually is. he's a great guy in the inside. i consented to us. ik that's illegal but i don't care. i do what i want when i want." i said.

the doctor looked shocked.

"i-i won't tell anyone that that's what happened. your so cool y/n the way you live how you want and you don't take bullshit from ANY of the cops who try to tell you wrong. you fight for what's right and your so young.  your an amazing person y/n" the doctor says and i smile.

"you grow up hows you were raised i mean.. you think my mom didn't have the same attitude as me?" i asked and she smiled.

she rolls over on her chair and gently pulls up my shirt.

"no what i'm gonna do it's just rub this with alcohol. to get all the gross stuff out ok? it's gonna sting but just be calm" she said cleaning my stab wound.

i bit my lip softly.

"all done!"

she grabs my wrists.

"jeez he really did a number one you mm?" she said.

"y-yeah" i stutter.

"your eye and your neck too! jeez that must be terrible" she says

i nod.

"wel i'll leav you be now.. it's late and maybe you want get some sleep" she says walking out.

i nod and out my phone down.

i reach for the remote that connects to the small tv in the corner of the room.

all i really needed was some background noise.

i put on the tv and closed my eyes..