𝙹𝚒𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜 ☼☽

𝐇𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐤𝐢

Hong Joshua, a member of the boy band seventeen

is in love with his band mate, Yoon jeonghan

Since their debut he felt like he have something for the elder

But he knows that he only see him as a brother

And even after those years of being together and knowing that fact he couldn't contain his feelings and fell for the elder even more

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Author pov

Today was a fansign of their new album

They were exited to meet their fans and interact with them

They were sited in order of their ages and each fans came one by one

At a moment a fan came and was asking a certain question to jeonghan

F: oppa~ how are you to the members? What your relations to each of them
Jh: they are all like my brothers I love them all as if they were my second family
F: and Joshua oppa ? What do you feel about him ?
Jh: shua~ is my dongsaeng and is like a brother to me and I love him so much and since our debut he's there for me, he's I think the twin brother I never had
He answered and the fan smiled and goes to the next member (Joshua)

Joshua listen to it and he's heart start aching, he didn't know why he felt sick suddenly but keep a straight face for the fans

But this sudden change in his face didn't got unnoticed by their leader

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The fans sign pass and every members were happy to have met many fans but Joshua right after putting a fake smile on just went to the back stage and stayed alone and had teary eyes

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Suddenly he felt like throwing up and run to the bathroom and what he saw make him scared, nervous and wonder what's happening

He saw petals

Yes Joshua throw up petals

He cried and was scared of what was happening

Until someone knock and spoke

Sc: shua ?
Joshua recognized scoups voice and didn't knew if he should hide it, the only thing he knows is that he can't hide anything for too long to scoups or anyone

He decide to open the door and scoups enter and gasp by seeing the petals

Sc: what did happen ?
Joshua start crying and said

Js: I I didn't felt well and felt sick and throw up and it's petals
scoups gasp and start to search what could it be until he get it, he remembered a story from one of his friends

Sc: do you love someone? In romantic way ?
Joshua gulp and felt his throat again getting filled

He couldn't contain and throw up again

Sc: that's what I thought, shua, tell me who do you love ?
Joshua look down and said almost whisper

Js: j jeonghan
Scoups gasp and in same time knew it, since their debut Joshua looked after jeonghan even tho he was younger and make sure that jeonghan was always fine and if he had to get tired for him he will, if he had to get hurt for him, he will

Sc: tell him, tell him shua, you can't stay like this
Js: w why ?
Sc: shua~ you have the hanahaki disease, it's when your one sided love, to cure it, one, you got loved back by that person, two, you get the petals removed but you also loose your feeling for him or even worse you loose your memory of him
Joshua was speechless, loosing his memory of jeonghan ? No he can't, he love him so much for that, but that love is killing him, what to do ? That was the fatal question that will now decide Joshua's life