Off to the races

I wish I was her

Tonight is a party or a cover up for business.

Everyone will be here and I know every Girl will be over Tommy ignoring the real lady by him.. me

Tommy drinks his coffee and I put mine aside.

I look at a nice dress that has a black delicate skirt and a coffee brown lace that is covered with pink and blue flowers.

As I run my fingers through short sleeves Tommy watches me as he lights his cigarette his eyes not leaving me.

I walk over to him smiling

"What is it Tommy?"

"You look beautiful"

I smile at him and I walk over to him as he gets up.

"Tonight I'd need you to stay inside I have business to do outside do not interrupt us as this is very important."

"I understand Tommy"

I kiss his cheek as he just mumbles to himself trying to get his vest on

I look in his eyes wondering if this could be the last time I do... I always look in his eyes when he has "business"

I know it could all go wrong one day

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I was wearing a lavender evening dress with a lavender headband to match it some pearl earrings and necklace to go along and long off white gloves with a fur shaw
Mary Janes also matched the dress and I felt so beautiful but if course every
Eye landed on Tommy as we walked in
And before a song could even start he walked off to say hi to important people and before I knew it he was already gone.

"You look lonely"

I hear a voice behind me say and I look back

"Very lonely.."

He looks at me intensely and walks over but a girl with brunette hair walks over to us
She grabs his hand and I see a ring on her hand.

I got the idea as Micheal looks at me awkwardly

"Enjoy the night I have guests to tend to."

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I walk outside to the front and I light a cigarette.

A man comes up to me

"I don't suppose you have another one do you?"

He was talk and he was very well dressed

"Yeah I do here"

As I hand him a cigarette he pulls out his lighter.

As the cigarette sits on the edge of my lips and I inhale he speaks

"So do you have a man?"

I look at him confused a little as I exhale

"I don't see a ring on your finger I assume if you were with someone they would already marry you."

I smile drop my cigarette to the floor stepping on it

"I'm not worthy enough for him to marry me"

He looks at me as his gaze softens

I hear the sound of people running towards us behind me

"I hope to see you again y/n"

He hands me a note and I slip it in my under my gloves.

Tommy walks up behind me as the man is now gone

"Who was that y/n?"

"I haven't the slightest idea..."

"Damn it y/n why are you outside I told you not interact with anybody."

"But I didn't know you would be out here in the front...."

"What did he say to you?"

"Nothing he just told me he hoped he would see me again.... He knew my name"

"fucking hell y/n why must you be so stupid?!"

"WELL IT ISN'T MY FAULT YOU DRAG YOUR DIRTY BUSINESS EVERYWHERE!"

"oh shut up y/n you whore."

"I'M THE WHORE? YOU'VE SLEPT WITH MORE LADIES THAN EVEN LIVE HERE YOURE THE WHORE! God do I have to die too in order for you to love me like your-"

SLAP

"DON'T YOU FUCKING SPEAK ABOUT HER DON'T EVEN COMPARE YOURSELF TO HER EVEN IF YOU WERE DEAD I'D FEEL NOTHING FOR YOU!"

I stand there hoping he'd apologize as always and make it up to me by a kiss and fake promises but he just stands there with nothing to give to me as I also stand there completely used.. I tried but it was never enough

I wish I was her