Not His Fault But Mine

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by TeddybearFelix

by TeddybearFelix

December 16,2011
7:35pm
Lawrenceville, GA

Dear Mom,
I'm pretty sure you what today is
The day of her 16th birthday
You were trying to make me girly
But I was to boyish at only 13

You left me with the boys
Gave me a dress to put on
Told me to put this on for the day
I did as you said and then it began

I put on the dress he helped me
Then started to touch me
Touching me inappropriately
I told his kids they didn't believe

When I told you we went there and there you told me
Told it was not his fault but mine
Mine because I was too friendly

And I hated you for that I still do
Do you regret letting him walk
Walking around the world
Ruining someone else's kid

Kids that young grow up fast
Fast because they have to
I never wanted to but I had to
Because you didn't give me a choice

When I told the school about it
They went to do something for me
Because they knew it was better
But you cursed me for trying to ruin a family that was already broken

I kept asking myself if I was wrong and I hated myself for it
But now I know that I can't tell you what I need to tell you because you made me broken beyond repair.

Hope you're happy,
Your second child