today is my bday. the girl who is my bsf for like 12yrs is with an another friend of hers. is souldnt be jelous. i should be happy but i just cant be. i feel guilty bc of jelousy BUT I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. i hate the girl who she is with. she knows more thing about my bsf and know things sooner. but she is so sweet at the same time..
I MISS THE OLD TIMES WHEN SHE WAS INA CALL WITH ME AND WANTED TO BE THE FIRST PERSON TO SAY HBD TO ME. im so afraid to lose her. i feel that she got "tired" of me. we are friends for such a long time and im not that intereting anymore. maybe thats the reason why i loose my friends.
i shouldnt think about it today but thats the only thing what i care ab at the moment. im a terrible person sometimes and i think i dont deserve my friends. but i am so greatful at the same time.
wich of my friends would sit next to my grave and talk to me about their day? would someone care about my graveyard?
stay safe, Reader<3
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Night toughts
PoetrySometimes i feel that others have to know how do i feel when im alone, and maybe someone who reads this realises that they are not alone and its OK to be not OK. Thats why i start this book!! WARNING: it might have some triggering parts
