• cotl / reader •

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Leshy x reader angst ( some context is gone because it was in the request on tumblr, CHECK IT OUT!!! @Antis-writing-empire

Leshy has never really thought about the relationship deeper then just the typical lovey dovey stuff or just a wonderful thing to be in. So when his thoughts started to dive into deeper manners is when he actually begun to think about the future and things you two definitely need to work on or get to. So it isn't much of a sunrise when he started dwelling on thoughts of how long you two will be together, only to remember he's a god and your just an ordinary mortal with an ordinary lifespan.

It strikes fear in him, and he starts to panic in his private chambers, gripping his horns harshly in a futile attempt to stop his thoughts. Sooner or later, he realizes just how important this situation is and how he needs to get it settled to ensure you two will be together forever and to help calm himself down. It was no fun being terrified that one day your partner would die of old age, it didn't help that the time spent with you felt like only a few weeks for him when in reality it was a couple years.

At first, he did nothing, too afraid to take action to go prevent this issue, and he just isolated himself in his room for a day or two before deciding to finally come to a conclusion. He needed to talk to you about it. Every relationship requires good communication, right? He started to trust his gut and he eventually came to you to put his thoughts at rest at last.

Leshy warped to the inside of your home and opened the door, carefully peeking in and looking at you for approval, and you had nodded, giving him permission to enter. He was so terrified of what you'd say, he was practically shaking and shivering. You quickly caught on to hid body language and questioned him, and Leshy let out several harsh breathes and opened his mouth to speak.

Leshy's words were hard to hear and jumbled together, but you made out a few sentences. He was telling you about your future together, and soon he started to get into the scary thoughts, the thoughts of you dying one day. Leshy had asked if he could make you immortal, and something in the question sparked fear in you. Your together wasn't going to be long for him, even if you are young.

After a moment of processing, you begun to think about the situation.

Immortality meant having to outlive your family, friends, and everybody you loved and cared about. But if you were to be im or, you'd be with Leshy forever. You felt your heart ache at the very thought of outliving your loved ones, but quivered in interest at the thought of being with Leshy forever. It was such a hard decision, but Leshy was presenting a choice you had to make.

You had told Leshy that you'd think about, and that enough brightened his mood and he left your shelter and back to what you assumed was probably his temple. You knew he had to take time to himself to think about the current problem, and you respected that. You sat down on your bed and weighed the two options.

Would you rather live forever; watching your loved ones and family die as you age and live with the man you love with all your heart? Or would you rather not be immortal; living the same span as your family members and friends, but Leshy gets more paranoid or depressed..

You didn't know if you could choose, and frankly, neither could he.

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In other words;

- Leshy would not take the whole 'you-not-living-together-forever thing' well at all.

- He loves you so very much and to see you die before him one day is an unbearable thought, you know? Imagine that you're in his place and you have to deal with knowing that your lover or someone you care about will die someday, wether you like it or not.

- Leshy might lose sleep over this or take more time to himself, which worried everybody around him even more.

- Upon realizing that his self-isolation is hurting others, he'll stop immediately. He still can't shake the dread of you dying out of his head.

- Yes, we will tell you how he feels because he's learned that it's very important to talk to others about your feeling ( From both Shamura and you )

- It will be hard to put together the courage to ask you or talk to you about it, but he'll do it anyway if it means he's doing a better job at expressing himself and his emotions to you.

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