TheLastRace

Really wish these thoughts would stop . I'm tired. My brain is tired .  My heart is tired . My body is tired . I am tired . I don't want to feel like this anymore . Constantly trying to fake it . I am tired .

I want peace , I want reassurance, I want happiness but instead . I am tired . I don't wanna have to think about if he loves me or not . I don't wanna have to mask up for him or the world . I don't wanna be sad & hurt . I am tired .

Why can't you just act right . HUH? Why can't my world just aligned correctly. What am I doing wrong ? Where am I going wrong . What step am I missing . I AM TIRED OF BEING TIRED .

Why am I constantly waking up ? Why is my money running low ? Why can't the boy I love more than life itself love me the same why I love him . I'm just tired . Why am I the black sheep huh ? ... why am I so angry huh? Why can't any one understand me . Why am I the broken one . Why do I have to be the only one who feels . I wish I was prettier .
                           
Somebody please answer!

I wish I was more wealthier . I wish I was more like what he wanted .I wish I got a better hand at the game of life because rn I'm losing because I'm just too tired .

I'm too tired to fight . I'm not strong anymore mama . I'm trying .I didn't do this for love . Well shit maybe it is . But not love  for a boy . My lack of love for life . I been fighting . I can feel my race coming to an end . This is the only thing I've truly won first place .This race .I want to be happy but it's taking over mama .