I feel the gun in my hand. I've always loved how cold it felt.
In just one moment, I would be gone...just a single second and
all of my pain would disappear. I would be free. How I've longed
for this moment. How great it's going to feel. The liberation.
The freedom. The feeling of leaving my body behind. The look
on my families faces. The disappointment. The despair. The loss
of all hope. The regret. The deaths to follow. It is then that I realize
that I can not take my life from those who feel they need it. I can't
be the one to take myself away from them. So, I let the gun fall from
my hand. I struggle to get to my feet. As I turn to look at my ticket
to freedom one last time, before I say goodbye, I notice something
extremely peculiar. Somehow, I am still sitting on the floor. My body is
still there, yet here I stand staring down at the shell that once
held me so close. The blood is splattered on the walls, along with
brain tissues and scattered fragments of my skull. This isn't what I
meant to happen. I didn't remember pulling the trigger, yet here
I stand staring down at me, while my family comes running in and
bursting to tears at the sight. My parents pull my siblings back to
shield their corneas from taking in the sight of my limp frame. In their
futile attempts, my siblings still catch glimpses of me. I'm looking at
them tears fill my eyes, as I know that they will never be the same again,
after this moment. My grandfather finally catches sight of me, and
he falls. He falls to his knees screaming and crying. Uncontrollable.
It wasn't supposed to be like this....but then again, it never is.
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My Poems/Ramblings
PoetryMy old poems, from the depressed, self hatred, heartbroken teenager years of mine. I only have one currently...Actually...I don't think I have the others anymore....So, I have one. Now, I'm really upset...Great. I can't believe I threw away the sp...