Chapter Forty Two

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Had Jimin's opinion been all drawn from his own family, he could not have formed a very pleasing opinion of conjugal felicity or domestic comfort

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Had Jimin's opinion been all drawn from his own family, he could not have formed a very pleasing opinion of conjugal felicity or domestic comfort. His father, captivated by youth and beauty, and that appearance of good humour which youth and beauty generally give, had married an omega whose weak understanding and illiberal mind had very early in their marriage put and end to all real affection for her. Respect, esteem, and confidence had vanished for ever; and all his views of domestic happiness were overthrown.

But Mr. Park was not of a disposition to seek comfort for the disappointment which his own imprudence had brought on, in any of those pleasures which too often console the unfortunate for their folly of their vice. He was fond of the country and of books; and from these tastes had arisen his principal enjoyments. To his mate he was very little otherwise indebted, than as her ignorance and folly had contributed to his amusement. This is not the sort of happiness which a man would in general wish to owe to his mate; but where other powers of entertainment are wanting, the true philosopher will derive benefit from such as are given.

Jimin, however, had never been blind to the impropriety of his father's behaviour as a mate. He had always seen it with pain; but respecting his abilities, and grateful for his affectionate treatment of himself, he endeavoured to forget what he could not overlook, and to banish from his thoughts that continual breach of conjugal obligation and decorum which, in exposing his mate to the contempt of her own children, was so highly reprehensible.

But Jimin had never felt so strongly as now the disadvantages which must attend the children of so unsuitable a marriage, nor ever been so fully aware of the evils arising from so ill-judged a direction of talents; talents, which, rightly used, might at least have preserved the respectability of his children, even if incapable of enlarging the mind of his mate.

When Jimin had rejoiced over Sehyun's departure he found little other cause for satisfaction in the loss of the regiment. Their parties abroad were less varied than before, and at home he had a mother and sister whose constant repinings at the dullness of everything around them threw a real gloom over their domestic circle; and, though So-min might in time regain her natural degree of sense, since the disturbers of her brain were removed, his other sister, from whose disposition greater evil might be apprehended, was likely to be hardened in all her folly and assurance by a situation of such double danger as a watering-place and a camp. Upon the whole, therefore, he found, what has been sometimes been found before, that an event to which he had been looking with impatient desire did not, in taking place, bring all the satisfaction he had promised himself. It was consequently necessary to name some other period for the commencement of actual felicity--to have some other point on which his wishes and hopes might be fixed, and by again enjoying the pleasure of anticipation, console himself for the present, and prepare for another disappointment. His tour to the Lakes was now the object of his happiest thoughts; it was his best consolation for all the uncomfortable hours which the discontentedness of his mother and So-min made inevitable; and could he have included Taehyung in the scheme, every part of it would have been perfect.

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