"The thing is...."
"you can tell me freely" I said
"Well, please don't think me living with you in an another way, there is nothing between us okay, I mean you are really nice but just clearing this out"
I felt as if someone pierced my heart, I actually had feelings for him which had grown over time, I didn't know what to say, so I just nodded my head and smiled, then went back to my room and cried my eyes out, but didn't make a sound.
Jungkook's pov
I have to tell this to Y/N, its hard because she is so sweet and nice, I just feel attracted to her sometimes, but even my company said it, I should not try to be too close to her, but I feel I can trust her, but I'll tell her anyways
Jungkook's pov again
Well, I told her, she just nodded, didn't even say anything and ran into her room, my chest felt tight as if I hurt her feelings, it feel weird but I had no choice, I told her that I asked the staff to let her live with me
She might think I like her and if 1% she doesn't turn out of what she seemslike right now then everything will be messed up. But I think she is trustworthy.
end of Jungkook's pov
I told myself, to keep this in mind that its just a Idol and fan relation and I'll go away in few days, I shouldn't get attached to him.
I cried.
I cried more.
After 15 mins, someone knocked my door, it was obviously Jungkook
I freaked out and wiped my tears, incase he sees them.
"What's wrong Y/N?" Jungkook asked soothingly
"Nothing I was just tired" I replied, trying to make my time sound calm but it was clearly like as if I cried, which I actually did.
"Did I hurt you feelings?"
"huh? what? no haha" I tried to sound as calm and chill as possible but it wasn't of any use, Jungkook knew I cried.
"I have been hearing from past 15 mins, you were crying, and I know you were trying to hide that but I already knew something like this will happen" said Jungkook , getting his deep voice softer and softer.
"I-I just you know I-" I couldn't speak and suddenly bursted into tears
" Hajimalago, urjimalago" (don't do this I said, don't cry I said) I said it to myself
All of a sudden, I felt I was against something soft but strong, it was Jungkook's chest, his strong muscular arms wrapped around me.
I choked on nothing, it was impossible, he actually did what,
whatever it was, I felt calmed down and secure in his arms.
He let go of me, I kinda wanted to hug him more as it was so calming.
"See, I didn't intend to hurt you, I know you like me, you toldme this twice, millions of girls do, but I had to do this, because later if the world finds out about you being with me, you realise how much you will have to suffer"
" I understand, but I'm just an another fangirl who kinda got hurt, don't mind me really"
" sorry to hurt you but the thing was you are kind of becoming special to me "
" wha-"
" Nevermind y/n just go to your room now"
" Jungkook" I gasped
"What is it? "
"Can I call you kookie, if you don't mind" I said shyly
" Yes,I will love that and please don't cry " Jungkook said.
" Okay" I said turning all pink
He smiled at went to his room.
I didn't know what to do, so I just sat doing nothing but thinking about what just happened, it felt so unreal, I cried, he hugged me, he said sweet dreams
I blushed and smiled but was upset at the same time. Aecha came to my mind but I still couldn't talk to her because I can't make international calls yet and what will I even tell her
I promised kookie I won't tell anyone anything
I wanted to be with kookie at that moment, it was a sudden attraction I don't even know why.
Jungkook's pov
I went near her room, the door was closed, I could hear faint crying sounds
I knew it
It would hurt her, but surprisingly it hurt me more than it hurt her, I love my fans but lately I felt as if I look at her more than a fangirl.
I thought I should tell her indirectly, make her feel that I kinda care for her
I knocked the door but my hands suddenly got sweaty and heartbeat rised.
She opened the door, he eyes were swollen and her voice was different, she definitely cried.
I tired to explain how I didn't want to hurt her, but she was just making herself feel more hurt and me too
I had no choice
I hugged her
and went back to my room, with my heartbeat drumming. I couldn't sleep, I was recalling everything that happened few minutes ago.
I wanted to be with her but we just met two days back
I actually didn't know what I was doing, I just met her two day back
YOU ARE READING
My fangirl
Fanfiction"Be my girlfriend" Y/N is a just a BTS fangirl who gets a job in South Korea, and her dream is to meet BTS somehow, she goes to a fanmeet and an incident occurs, which made her Jungkook's gf? (Its gonna be short sorry ig) Guys my first ff, lol, it...
