Finding Myself - A New Beginning

A View Into Sangs Past

"It's funny when you think about it, it all starts with one person and there desire to have more, to be more, to be all. They say we were created in God image, it makes me shudder to think if we have the same emotions as him or lack of, then what was he thinking. Or was it just a big joke to see how we would all survive with each other.

"There is a saying 'Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe' that was quoted by Saint Augustine. I believe it to be a bombastic phraseology, how can one continue to have faith in anything when every time that person does, it is destroyed all over again.

"I had Faith in us, and that was taken from me, I had Faith that I could do this, that I could live as a vampire and live a normal life but even that was taken from me, now the only person who has had all my faith left in these last few miserable excuse of existence has now trashed it again. How does one continue to go on, when all the faith they had left in this world is gone. How do you get that back?

"You know it all boils down to sometimes getting the things to go the way you want by communicating, revealing, justifying, presenting your argument, and even through the use of force. Then again, sometimes you should shut up or not say anything in the first place. That sounds simplistic, but it is about timing, as timing is the turning point in our histories, isn't it."

"She will rise when he will fall,
She will bring light when he will bring darkness,
She is what he will fear most in this world,
She will stop them all and,
She will be our saviour"

I was pulled out of my rant and picked up and placed onto someone lap, I registered smell vanilla and turned into Luke more, wrapping myself around him.

"If you don't have any faith left in the world then have hope, hope that even in your darkest times, that we will have all the faith that you need to help you through what you are going through. That we will hold onto it for you until you can see it for yourself again. Believe in us sweetie and believe that we will help you in every way that we can. Now what was that last thing you spoke of, is that the prophecy that he mention on the footage?"

I looked to Luke and nodded. "To explain I'll have to go back to the start, it's a long story so if you all want to get something to eat or drink I suggest you do it now, because once I start I don't want to stop."

They all nod and get up and head out the door, I stay in Luke's lap and look up at him. "Are you not going to get anything?"

He shakes his head as me and gives me a small kiss, "I'm fine right as I am cupcake, how about you, and you going to switch back to normal yet?"

"I can't, not yet, when I am like this it dulls things for me, when I switch back everything is heighten from lack of use especially my emotions. I can't break down yet; I need for you all to understand first. Also the hunger will hit me when I turn back I will need to feed first, so I will have to wait.

"You know you can feed from me, I don't mind, after we are done here, after you tell us what's going on, I'll help you out ok." I shook my head at him; I don't want him to be disgusted by me. "I now what your thinking, a little blood isn't going to scare me, It will be fine, I promise." I just sigh and sink into him more.

"Hey Trouble," I jumped forgetting he was still in the room, "you can also drink from me too, ok?"

"Thank you, both of you, for everything." I say a small tear sliding down my cheek.

The guys finally came back to the room and placed plates loaded with food on the table and plenty of drinks, I guess they realise this is going to take a while.

I reach over and grab a glass filling it up with some water, knowing full well that I will need it soon.

"When ever your ready Miss Sorenson, you may begin."