━ " 𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐌𝐄 " | Genshin x reader

Xiao | If only...

❝ 𝐈𝐅 𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐘... ❤ .ᐟ ❞ One regret many consequences... 

CONTENT TAGS: Gender Neutral Reader, Angst, Short fic!, Reader is in fact deceased. 

— He couldn't bring himself to get rid of your belongings, always wearing the gifts you had given to him before, back in a time where all was peaceful and he could hold you for as long as he wants.

— Your room stayed the same, unchanged and untouched, he couldn't bring himself to clear it out nor move your stuff, at the very least he can recall the memories the two of you shared through your living quarters.

— As the days past without you, he'd question why you left him, his grief consuming him fully, he couldn't have imagined a life without you, at least not when you've come into his life and ruined him for anyone else, not after you've jarred all of his love for yourself, not when you've captured him like a hunter trapping it's prey.

— He personally cleans your room every weekend, carefully with all his heart, as if each item was a fragile glass vase, as he recalled the memories you two shared, how your voice called out to him ever so softly, he couldn't help but let out a sorrowful chuckle as he remembered the words you had once said to him "I'd never leave you... why are you so worried?"

— Even at the hospital, as you struggled to breathe, you uttered those very words to him, holding onto his hand, your voice barely came out as a whisper, as he tried so hard not to break in front of you, he couldn't help but imagine, what if he was stronger? Was he the one that failed you.

— If he was stronger, he'd have realized your symptoms, he would have put more care over your health than anything else... He should have been the one comforting you on tired sleepless nights, where you cried out in pain, not the other way around.

— He couldn't control the tears that threatened to fall, even in the very last moments he had spent with you.. you were comforting him.. he couldn't help but break.. the tears he held back then, releasing every time he visits your residence.

— He regrets more than anything, was not being there for you, not saying "I love you" to you... He could scream the words out now, that one line and phrase "I love you y/n" but even if he did, what would be the use? You'd never hear his words..

— The tears fell as he couldn't help but utter the words "I'm sorry" over and over again, hoping and hoping it would reach your ears.. but it never will...

"I'm sorry sir.. but the patient your looking for is no longer here with us" the words he had never wanted to hear, echoed through his head. "Was this some kind of sick twisted joke?" he questioned, in complete denial. He couldn't help but break, right there and then, when he realized.. You told him you were ok, you said you would be fine.. and that you'd always be by his side.. then why.. THEN WHY?? are you not here... why aren't you comforting him at this very moment.. Why weren't you here..

As the scene zooms out and he drifts off too sleep in your bed, one could take notice of the ring placed right in front of your photo... If only he had the change to show you how much you meant to him.. if only... 

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