— Hyunjin’s POV —
School was over already, It was now time to pack up and leave
Walking through the hallway, He saw Jisung sitting on the ground alone on his phone, texting?
Hyunjin couldn't help but think about what Jooyeon said in the Cafeteria today, ‘He sooo hot’ It made him wonder
He didn't even realize he was starring at Jisung out of ‘nowhere’ he claims.
Who the hell was he even texting!?, And why am I starring at him right now!?,
Hyunjin had enough of these thoughts, He wanted to see Jisung get tortured again
Hyunjin walked over to Jisung who was calmly listening to music and on his stupid phone.
“Jisung-ah!” Hyunjin yelled
No reply
“Fuck you.” Hyunjin mumbled and snatched Jisung’s headphones off his head
“You dumbass, Why weren't you listening to me?” Hyunjin eye's narrowed.
— Jisung's POV —
Jisung was confused, He had his headphones on, and he knows Hyunjin seen that?— wait a minute.. Why is he talking to me?
“I’m sorry, I was listening to music and—”
Jisung’s helpless rambling was cut off
“Come on now, We're friends, You can stop saying ‘Sorry’ now” Hyunjin masking his evil intentions with nice one's
“Wha? Friends?” Jisung was shocked to say the least
Hyunjin chuckled and bend down to Jisung’s sitting level “Jisung, We've had our very very rough times, but now.. We'll finally be able to put this all behind us.” Hyunjin reached his hand out
Jisung took it, and Hyunjin pulled him up and wrapped an arm around him as they started walking
“Where do you live?” Hyunjin asked
“3 dorms down from yours” Jisung answered
“Oh!- wait, How do you know where I live?”
Jisung froze, Why did I say that!?
“Because, I'm the dorm keeper, You know.. One of the few maids for this building”
Jisung said, He wasn't lying though, He was the dorm keeper, But how he found Hyunjin’s dorm is by stalking him.. Since they were 5 years old.
“Well, We're here, I'll see you later” Hyunjin waved bye to his new ‘Friend’
Jisung waved back and walked into his dorm..
— Hyunjin’s POV’s —
He kicked his shoes off his foot and plopped down on the bed to relax
He took his phone from out his pocket and saw 10+ messages from his group chat
Nerd 👾 (Jooyeon): ‘Read it!’
Dumbass 😑 (Elliot): ‘Yea and tell us how it goes’
And so many more messages
‘Okay, I will’ Hyunjin replied
He turned his phone off and grabbed his book bag
He took the well decorated diary out and starred at it for some time
It was covered in gems and rhinestones, red and black “Don't Read!” printed on it
Hyunjin snickers at Jisung’s stupidity.
Page one; ‘Hi, my name is Hand Jisung! And this is my diary’ Hyunjin looked at corners of the pages, marked ‘Fri/Feb/12/07’
HA, what the hell is wrong with his hand writing, and the dates look weird, just say ‘February 12th 2007’ Hyunjin laughed at Jisung’s 6 year old self— Until he remembered that he used to write his dates like that..
“oh.”
Hyunjin blushed, but he couldn't look away
He decided that he couldn't handle 6 year old jisung hand writing for some reason, so he just skipped to 2019
‘In his dream, he hit me, I guess I can't escape the things I have to deal with.. A broken heart and a broken nose.’
Hyunjin froze, why the hell is he making me look bad!? hyunjin groaned
‘Hyunjin hit me with a uppercut today, I think he caused a fetal bruise on my face, Something I'll have to cover up for these next weeks, because I don't want to get him in trouble’
Hyunjin rolled his eye's. yea yea, no one wants to. I cannot keep reading if he's going to make me seem like I'm the bad person! Hyunjin said in his head
‘Today was the last day of school, I saw Hyunjin and His new girlfriend going to prom as I sat under the bleachers.. I was happy for him, I'm writing this while crying as The music is blasting in my ears, so if the ink rubs off, it's not my fault.. Or is it? Why do I have to be a failure?’*
*‘P.S; I was caught by the guard. Also, Him and his girlfriend won prom king and queen.. Yay.’
All hyunjin could do was think about that day and how much he hated that girl.
He starred at the page for some minutes, lost in his mind as his subconscious put Hyunjin in Jisung's shoes and that was the one thing that broke him
“Fuck. Wh— Why was I so mean to him!?”
‘Third suicide attempt. Noted with a letter; Mom, Dad, I love you guys, I tired, I've done counseling, I wanted help, now I just want to be reborn.. As— something? I just don't want to be here right now.’ — March 3rd 2020
Hyunjin closed the book as fast as he could, Flashbacks hitting him all at once, the ‘marathon of jisung’ he'd used to call it
A day filled with Hyunjin flushing the toilet with his face in it, or Hyunjin smacking him until he was on the floor, or Hyunjin beating the shit out of Yoonji for hitting Jisung and there was so much other things that happened that day with him and Jisung
“I'm sorry..” Hyunjin cried “I-” he huffed, He felt like he couldn't breathe, He felt like he was going to pass out, He panicked at the thought of carrying Jisung being dead on his back
He tried to calm down by hugging his pillow, Which did calm him down..
He needed to apologize, He couldn't read it anymore, Tomorrow was going to be a hell of a day for everyone.
