Whole

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When will I feel whole?
When will I feel whole?
When will I feel whole?
When will I Be whole?
When will I be whole?
WHEN I BE WHOLE?
Who am i?
I am a we?
Who am I when I don't know whether to say
We or I?
Who am I?
Who am i when my mind goes
Blank?
Am I just the fragments of my mind?
My mind was shattered oh so many times.
Why did I let this happen?
Since this happened so many times
it must be my fault
Right?
This is not my fault..
This is not my fault.
This is not my fault.
My trauma is not my fault.
When will I feel whole?
When will I be whole?
When will I be whole?
When will I be whole?
WE WILL BE OKAY
Eventually...
I am not whole.
I will never be whole.
Maybe that's okay.
It's okay to be many.
It's okay not to be whole.
IT'S OKAY NOT TO BE WHOLE.
I will never feel whole becuase im not whole.
I am a we.
WE ARE NOT WHOLE.
We will be more than surviving, we will truly live.
We need to stop digging...
Digging a hole because we are not whole.
We are getting better,
We are getting worse.
That's how it happens.
Healing is not linear.
We are wooden pieces taped together with scotch tape.
We are not whole.
We can't keep pretending to be whole.
We are in pieces but
We are not falling apart.
We are not shattering.

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