"what do you need to tell me" Blake asked paying attention to the blonde
"I don't know how to tell you without you hating me" Olivia said sadly
"I could never hate you" Blake said shaking his head
"I wouldn't be so sure of that" Olivia said
"your scaring me sweetheart" Blake said
"it doesn't matter" Olivia said
"talk to me what's wrong" Blake said giving his full attention to the blonde
"I'm scared" Olivia said sadly
"your scared to tell me something" blake asked
"yeah" Olivia nodded
"I never want you to be scared of me or scared of speaking to me Olivia you can tell me anything" Blake said sadly he never wanted the blonde he loved more than anything to be afraid of him
"I know but your going to hate me when I tell you blakers and I can't imagine a world with you hating me" Olivia said sadly
"I could never hate you Olivia just tell me I actually dont think I could hate anyone" Blake said calmly
"Blake can you sit down" Olivia frowned
"don't tell me you want to get back with Carter" Blake said shaking his head crossing his arm sitting down across from the girl
"no Blake I made a mistake ever getting with carter you are my present and future" Olivia smiled reaching her hand out over the island
"I love you" blake smiled bringing the girls hand up to his mouth placing a kiss on it
"I love you more" Olivia smiled
"no I love you more and I don't hate anyone especially not you please just tell me what you were going to say" Blake asked
"you do hate some people" Olivia said
"okay yeah actually I hate cal jacobs and Vanderbilt but I have reasons for hating them" Blake said
"your mum" Olivia said quietly causing Blake to let go of her hand running his fingers through his hair he hadn't expecting the girl to bring up his mum
"she's dead to me you know how I feel about her Anyone who uses drugs are dead to me like why would you put that shit in your body" Blake said angrily
"Blake" Olivia said anxiously
"If they don't care about hurting their loved ones when the inevitable happens and they die then why should I care and let myself get hurt" Blake said trying to remain calm with the girl in front of him
"she's your mom" Olivia said sadly trying to get through to the dark haired boy
"try telling her that because she's too much of a coked up junkie to act like a mum to me or austin I spent so many nights crying over her I needed my mum and all she needed was her fix she didn't get a shit I'm starting to come around to rafe but he's the only one I will forgive Olivia" blake said sadly lifting his head up she could see tears welling in his eyes
"I'm sorry for bringing her up I just don't want you to have any regrets" Olivia said she knew she couldn't tell the gray boy about her dirty little secret she hated not being honest with him and she knew it was selfish but she needed him in her life
"it's okay I know you only had good intentions sweetheart your such a good person i do see where your coming from but I just don't want to talk about my mum how are you feeling" Blake asked standing up from the stool making his way over to Olivia wrapping his arms around her
