love-sick taiga-san

Monday - affection

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It's been a while since Hirano and Kagiura started their '10 seconds of touching' everyday. But lately 'holding hands' has a weak grip, and their hugs doesn't feel as affectionate anymore, neither Hirano or Kagiura could feel flustered at all.

It seems like Kagiura had been holding himself back, has he started to consider giving up on making Hirano fall in love with him? Or did his methods start to get old?

"Kagi-kun.. you know if you want to start doing something...more... I honestly don't mind. You don't have to keep on holding yourself back, I'm completely okay if you want to hug me tighter, or  hold hands longer."

"No, it's fine Hirano-san. I don't want to make you uncomfortable, after all it's me who requested we do this. So I should treat you with care."

Kagiura held a soft smile, he slowly opened the door then walked off to basketball practice. How odd... not even a goodbye.

For a brief moment, Hirano froze, attempting to reflect on his own thoughts and actions. 

'Did I do something wrong?', he first thought, 'Does he hate me?', 'Is he getting tired of me?'

'Does he not love me anymore!? Did I piss him off!? Does he want to leave me!? Does he.. like somebody else? Did he give up on me..?'

Second by second, Hiranos thoughts started to become gradually more depressing, Hirano never felt more desperate for Kagiura's love and attention, surprisingly, he actually was hesitant about the whole 'touching for 10 seconds' at first. Why did he start to want more affection, if he's not 'in love' with Kagiura? Is this.. what you call being needy..?

-Sigh-

'I honestly don't get that guy, why has he been avoiding me lately?'

Hirano thought to himself.

"He wanted me to fall in love with him, right? Why has he been so avoidant to me recently..?"

For the first time in ages, Hirano felt like his heart had been stabbed millions of times, he never felt more anxious and nervous in his life.

'How exhausting love can be..' Hirano thought to himself once again.

One day, will Hirano be capable enough to stop bottling up his feelings? If he doesn't realize what he truly feels about Kagiura soon, they might end up distancing apart.