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What life will be in 5 years...

So I was having a chat with a friend today (March 7th 2023) and we were speaking about our current views on marriage, settling down, having kids blah blah. We are both in our late 20s at the moment btw and we have absolutely different expectations when it comes to our future. I intend to remain single, avoid marriage and not have kids whereas this friend is all in for settling at the right age and having a family.

So somehow the conversation started with this friend asking me why I'm so against the idea of marriage and then I was like it's because I've seen the brutal reality of it in others' lives around me and therefore I'm not ready to go through the same. At first my friend thought I was only referring to the emotional side of things with a partner but then when I explained there's more to it like the financial struggles that start after marriage, the peer pressure to get into motherhood and so on, which I'm definitely not ready to face, we kind of agreed that for me it's best that I stay single and become the rich, cool aunt that buys things for my niblings than become a 24/7 mom. And then the friend was like it would be really nice for us to have this conversation in 5-6 years to see whether anything has changed or it's all the same. That's when I imagined 3 different fates for myself in 5 years time that might make me give different responses if we do get to speak about this topic in the future.

Here are the the 3 different scenarios that I mentioned to my friend 😆👇

Although I mentioned just these 3 scenarios it doesn't mean that definitely one of them is going to happen. It could be something else entirely like I could be happily married with no kid and be cool with it or I could be unhappily married with no kid but desperately in need of one or I could be divorced  or I could be widowed or I could be  single and running my own business or just published a book that I wrote or I could be horribly sick or who knows, I could be even dead! Or much worse — none of the aforementioned and I could be stagnant where exactly am — in the same old village with the same old job just writing nonsense like this simply because I have the time to do it. I mean the possibilities of the future are endless, right? And that is what makes life both exciting and terrifying!

Anyway I thought I'd just write this down here because lately I've become a huge fan of reflecting back on my old writings to realize how much things have changed and how much of it I appreciate and how much of it I regret. I recently found some old emails I had written for myself sometime back where I've spoken about my insecurities, future plans and so on. Now even though my life hasn't entirely changed from then to now, I was happy to see that there has been some sort of change. For example, I'm not completely over my insecurities but over the past few years I've definitely grown so much as a person that I worry less about things that used to be huge issues for me 3-4 years back. Likewise even in terms of career I have not particularly achieved what I wanted back then but I'm certainly grateful for where I am now.

So yeah, thinking of these things I just felt it would be good to record about this conversation too because even if I do forget it, someone on Wattpad might vote on this or comment on this in the future and maybe then I will be reminded to look back on my life and then maybe even get in touch with the friend to discuss how much things have changed! I hope that we both get to live for another 5 years though. Everything is so unpredictable these days that even that is uncertain 😅

What do you think of journaling? I don't do it regularly but sometimes I need to do it to get things off my chest. How about you? Do you write about your feelings for the same reason too? Let me know in the comments below 😀