To,
ephemeral twilight,
My Heart hasn't been the same. And all I could ask is... why?
Why must I go through this?
Why must I force myself to forget you?
You are so beautiful. So beautiful that I can plant a whole garden in your memories.
Before I'd ask myself...how can I be so happy? How can someone make me so happy? How can they make me quite self harm? The answers were hidden on your lips. The more I kissed you, more I fell into the sea of devotion. I tied my soul with yours. Beware of my scars cause they are sharp and will go deep into your skin too. But I did nothing after all. I not only tore open yours but also gave you countless new.
Love me?
It was not easy for you. But you tried for me. I can't say it was love from your side. But your feelings for me were enough for me. I'm sorry...I made you walk the same path that lead to pain.
Hold me?
If I had 7 lives. I would spent all of them loving you. Doesn't matter if you won't be mine. Can I wait for the day I'd get tired of loving you?
No
How can I get tired of loving you. When it's keeping me alive.
I'd rather die than stop loving you.
But all it is....
Is some lies in the river of truth.
Color me?
Paint me with your colors. Oh,how mesmerizing you are. How can I take back my heart from you when it refuses to come to me?
Hate me...
I must be crazy. For pushing you away. I must be crazy for letting you go.
Why did I do so? Am I really crazy?
I refuse
I refuse to live knowing the fact that Im hurting you.
Why ?
Because I'm the one holding the gun.
Wouldn't you remember me?
Forget me...
I don't deserve to be remembered.
Close your eyes tonight.
You have lived enough days knowing a murderer like me.
Pluck a flower from my garden and never return.
It will wither away eventually.
But don't come back for another one.
For I'd give you thrones next time.
It ain't me you fall for.
Cause that person died within me.
"I love you."
They said,as their last words.
So, I pull the trigger again.
One more bullet.
One more scar.
She was gone...
And you came back looking for her..
If only I can tell you again...
For the last time..
With the right heart...
But................
You have such beautiful eyes,love
Eyes I wished I kissed
Eyes I wish I could kiss..
Only if I can go back to the time
When I used to hold you in my arms every night
Softly...securely
You have such a beautiful heart...
I still have your letters...
My heart died-
From,
Disintegrated Dawn
