I always try to avoid you before our presence and eyes meet...
I always choose to push you away by distancing myself first....
But deep inside...
I also
Always,
Always did....
Always longed to see you,
Always wanted to be with you,
And ever always wanted you to stay so badly...
It's just that,
I couldn't freely, honestly tell you that
For I know that won't make you stay no matter what.
So even in the end,
I couldn't say goodbye
When you left.
I really hated knowing you have to go one day.
I tried to prepare myself
But
It still gets to me
When I think about it.
I just wanted to embrace you as a parting gift.
Yet it never did...
I never even was able to give you the vial of good wishes I have kept for quite some time now.
You know,
I really hope I could see you one last time...
Before you go....
Or I won't get over these tears that escape from my eyes each time you linger in this mind of mine.
