TRIGGER WARNING:
abandonment
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Why did you leave?
That guestion clouds my mind every night mare while I lay in bed staring at the ceiling knowing I won't get an answer,
simply because you will just say "sorry".
Sorry doesn't matter to me when it comes out of your mouth anymore.
You are not sorry that you left.
You are not sorry that you lied to me,
saying "I will come see you soon, I promise, I just don't have enough money right now.
You have not had "enough money" for 9 years!
All while I look on Facebook to find you and your other family, having the time of your life.
You left hope in that little girls heart, that she would see her daddy again.
That hope was left to crumble in and her heart til' it was only crumbs of it left.
I cant hate you though.
You are my dad.
I don't like you.
But I don't hate you.
I'm just confused.
How could you leave your little girl crying at her front door,
hanging on your leg and begging you not to go.
I can still remember every part of that.
It haunts me to this day.
I promised myself that I will never be like you, leaving my family just to go off to another one like it didn't even happen.
And I won't ever break that promise.
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My poetry :)
PoetryTRIGGER WARNING: self-harm abandonment mental health issues sexual assault suicidal ideations anxiety If you are not comfortable with any of these topics you might not wanna read this if there is anymore lemme know :) also this is my first book s...
