everyone always sees me as someone who is always smiling and happy and smart and pretty and what not . but truth is im none of those . maybe it's because i have depression or a metal disorder or a pistanthrophobia that i cannot see it . but i truly believe in my heart that I'm the most ugly stupid and fat girl on earth .
maybe so .
maybe not .
but in my life I've learned to do a few things .
shut up .
don't show anything .
don't trust .
do as you're told .
help others before yourself .
those have always come pretty easily . but it's sometimes hard
"sometimes ."
that terrible word .
" sometimes " i wish i could just forget about it .
*looks at blade* as always - i need you - thank you , best friend .
