you heard the shower turn off and a few minutes later dawson came and sat on the couch beside you in some sweatpants
dawson-yes, whiskey
he smiled taking the glass from you sipping some as your jaw dropped
you-that was mine, yours is there
you pointed to the table and he shrugged making you shake ur head and giggle
dawson-oh well its just a glass
you smiled as he placed the glass onto the table glancing up to you
dawson-you alright?
he asked with a small chuckle and you smiled back adding a small nod
you-im perfect
dawson-you sure are
he said back with a jokey tone...
did he seriously just say im perfect....what.
dawson-so, hows that job of yours going?
he asked sliding his hands in his lap almost resisting to touch you.
you-well it's alright, i mean being a librarian isn't my dream job but its pretty fun, calm too
you explained taking another sip from ur glass
you-hows tami?
he froze up clearing his throat
something off..what's up with them? his not driving home and now his not talking about her?
dawson-fine, shes fine
he pushed a smile through his lips as your eyes softened
you-whats going on dawson?
you asked seriously putting your hand into his quickly concerned
dawson-she's stuck in alcohol. even if i drink a tiny bit like i am now around our little boy is gonna think it's a normal occurance
he got cut off by the lump in this throat clearing it again keeping his eyes down
you-how long has this been happening?
you asked knowing her past...rehab for this kind of stuff.
dawson-a while, look im gonna head to bed
he smiled cleaning up the bottle and glasses making you sigh
you-i can help her again you know dawson all you have to do is ask its unfair for you and him to go through tha-
dawson-its fine i can't ask that of you again
he cut you off with a soft tone going into the spare bedroom and so you slid into your bedroom, rolled over facing away from the window in an attempt to sleep...and sooner or later you woke up to a phone call
dawson-yes i know baby boy daddy's gonna be home very soon i just had a super busy day buddy
he replied as you sat up glancing to your half open door noticing dawson sat at the counter on the phone
dawson nodded getting out of his seat sighing
dawson-i know bud but i can't come home now it's super super late, its dangerous for daddy to come home now im with aunt y/n
he smiled glancing into ur bedroom seeing you sat up awake staring at him
his beautiful. i hate to say it but ever since he broke up with me in highschool for taramia my hearts been so completely broken. i love him endlessly.
dawson-yeah baby, aunt y/n has been good to me
he chuckled walking over to your bedroom leaning against the doorframe
dawson-hows mommy?
darien-sleeping i not cuz daddy hugs
he whispered keeping the quiet voice and you smiled at his voice
his so cute trying to form words.
dawson-hug ur favourite pillow mr dino you know him?
darien-yeah
dawson-pretend that his daddy, his super big and soft like me
he smiled and you gazed back with a smile
darien-okay, do you hug aunt y/n like its mommy?
he asked making dawson stutter
dawson-um no baby
he whispered fixing his hair
i wish he did little dari.
dawson-me and mommy don't cuddle
he said quite upset
dawson-mommy gets hot and pushes me off, sometimes i have to come to ur big bed remember?
he asked and you sat now confused
do they...not have a relationship? doing it for darien?
dawson-go back to bed buddy i'll be home in the morning with waffles
he lightened the mood
darien-yayyy thanks daddy i love you!
dawson-i love you loads more
he smiled hearing the line cut out as he put his phone down
he sighed rubbing his face
you-hey what do you mean you don't cuddle and you get kicked out the room?
dawson-yeah she's i don't know confusing
he shrugged sitting beside you
you-you can talk to me you know
you reassured him seeing his eyes go watery..
he fell to your chest hugging you tightly and you sighed hugging him back
dawson-i don't know whats up with her it's been months of nothing, no kissing no nothing
he cried as you gently played with his hair
you-its okay let it out
you whispered lying down with him.
he lay beside you with his head on your chest and arms wrapped around you
he glanced up with puffy eyes clearly very upset
dawson-it hasn't been the same with her like it was with you
he admitted resting his cheek on ur chest
dawson-i miss us but i have a little boy and i can't just leave him his my entire world
he whispered against your neck and you smiled
you-i know
you gave a calm smile stuttering your next few words
you-i still like you, i love you
he smiled at the words tucking himself into you for more cuddles
dawson-i realise ive came to your house alot recently but i find comfort in being around you and being around her causes me so much stress and anger i hate acting that way around darien
you-i understand its okay, feel free to come over whenever you have too.
you reassured him running ur hands up and down his back
dawson-it feels so good to touch somebody
he sniffled hugging you more if even possible
you-i'll talk to her, figure out what's going on you don't deserve to feel like this
he smiled adding a deep breathe
dawson-goodnight
he muttered with his eyes closed and you lay smiling like an idiot
his wanted me. all this time his still wanted me.
