350: What it's like to cut

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"Describe what it's like to cut".

Well, go to the beach. And walk in the water, blindfolded. You just keep walking, you don't know where you're going. You just know you're going deeper. That's what the build up to cutting feels like. You don't know where you're going. Depression has blinded you. All you know is you're going deeper. Now just keep going until you drown. You want air, you want relief, you don't want to be drowning anymore. Now imagine the relief when someone pulls you out of the water. That's what cutting is. Relief. Relief from all the pain you've been drowning in. Relief from not feeling good enough. Relief from the bullies at school. Relief from feeling like you're fat. Relief from your imperfections and insecurities. You might find cutting disgusting and you might never understand it but when you're drowning, you need saving. You need relief. So what is cutting like? It's relief.

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