If we can't live forever
Baby, it is now or never
And if nothing I guess I'll see you in Heaven
'Cause I'm speeding on my way home from Eleven
"Baby why don't you just move in. Half yo shit here anyway." Y/n said grabbing me by my waist
"Why you questioning me nigga?" I asked playfully
"Cause you just gone waste time going back and forth shit a nigga tryna spend more time with yo lil ass." She said putting her head in my next
"Yeah right nigga." I said blushing and smiling
And I dream to be a fool
That way you wouldn't know that I knew what you do
'Cause I know that you're good at seeing through me
You always make me feel like I'm invisible
"Say twin I got, shit a couple ounces." Y/n said on the phone
Not paying me any attention. This has been going on since we got this apartment together. I go make music and she does God knows what. Actually I'll tell you what she does. She smokes, drinks, deal, and cheat. I know I should leave but I love her with all my heart. I can't see myself with someone else.
"Bae can we go out?" I said rubbing her back as she sat between my legs
"Hold on mama." Y/n said looking at me then went back into her conversation
"Sucka." I said rolling my eyes and pushing her off me
And if I told you, "The world is yours"
You'd just wanna go to Mars
But I cannot sell my soul to prove, it should've been ours
And I use my telescope at night, it won't be for stars
Instead I hope that I can love, you from a far
"Ain't that yo girl?" My friend Kay asked
I turned to see Y/n standing in a line not paying any attention to the world around her. Typical.
"She not my girl anymore." I said still looking
"Damn girl when was you gone tell me. Y'all been together since God only knows. Y'all could never leave each other alone." She said then went back to eating
"Yeah some times you gotta leave them where they at." I said admiring her from a far
'Cause, ain't no elevator
Guess I'll take the long way home
Call the operator
Tell him to the roof I go
And my mama is pager
Ain't the type to leave a note
'Cause it ain't no use in turning 'round
When you up forty-eight floors
Mariah Buckles also know as singer songwriter Mariah the Scientists was found dead at her hotel. The singers sudden cause of death was ruled a suicide. They said Buckles jumped from the 48 floor building around 10 last night. We will keep you guys updated as we find out more information.
"You don't wanna eat?" My mama asked
I continued to stare at the wall. In the comfort of my bed. Watching the same news clip over and over again. It's been a month since she passed. Still can't seem to forgive myself. I know I'm the reason. Maybe I should go jump of a building next.
"At least get out your room baby. You look terrible. A month with no eating you should be glad your still here." She said
"I'm not." I said replaying the video again
"Y/n I'm not playing get up. I know you had so much to say to her. Visit her get it off your chest." My mama said
"Now come on I'll even ride with you." She said pulling me up
Time Skip Mariah's POV
Walking the world is pretty cool. I've been to more places then I could ever imagine. But I've mainly been checking on Y/n. I know she loved me. She just let people get in her head. Let then talk her into a lifestyle she knew she didn't live.
It's sad seeing her sad. She blames herself when really it was me. Maybe if I answered her I would still be alive. That night she called me so many times. Left so many messages and I still chose to jump.
"Just say what you need to. I'll be in the car." Mrs.Y/ln said. Love that woman always made sure we had our shit together. That's probably why Y/n is out here. She hasn't been here since my funeral. Even then she didn't come and look at me.
"Damn Mariah just gone leave me on this shitty earth huh?" Y/n said in a laugh making me chuckle a little
"You probably looking at me in disgust and you got every right. I fucked alot and you stood there taking that shit. When you left I knew you was sick of my shit. I let them niggas get in my head." She said placing some new flowers on my tomb stone
"I know." I said like she could here me
"That night I called and text I was drunk as hell. I was finna off myself. That's why I called. I won't tell my mama that but it's true. And while I was calling you, you was planning to do the same thing." She said with tears in her eyes
She never cried. Ever since we met. Death, pain, anything you're typically supposed to cry about she didn't. So I know this is ripping her apart.
"I came to say sorry. I'm sorry I pushed you to that point. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better girlfriend. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you after the death of our child. I'm sorry for all that shit." She said finally breaking down
"It's not your fault boo." I said trying to wipe her tears but fell straight through
"Come on baby." Mrs.Y/ln said picking up her daughter
"I'll see you in Heaven boo." I said quietly as I slowly faded away
My fault y'all I will make a happier story next time. But this is the first song I thought of when I saw Mariah the Scientist pop up. Anywhore
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