My visions a blur
From drinking all this liquor
I swear I'm not an alcoholic
I just wanted to feel frolic
I don't wanna share these feelings
So I lay there staring at ceilings
Because I know they don't wanna hear this
So we just kiss
But they don't know I'm Praying for solace
Because everyone always on us
Making us feel unworthy
Showing no mercy
Of how they fucked us up
Reminding me I am a fuck up
I'll never be enough
They think it's a bluff
But little do they know
I'm about to go
The blade in my hand
Wont make them understand
The rush of adrenaline
Is my medicine
It makes me feel good
Like I thought it would
But now the blood is dripping
While I keep ripping
My skin slices
While all people care about is prices
I'm laying here numb
Wondering what I have become
My arms stinging
Whilst my ears ringing
Maybe this is it
At last I may be a spirit
I shall rest in peace
Where I thought I'd feel release
But my hearing returns
And I hear people concern
My body starts to feel
As they heal
My eyes struggle to open
I don't want to be awoken
I sleep in fear
That I will reappear
I didn't want this life
Hence why I took the knife.
