I should have been there

I miss you like a little kid (Tories POV)

It's been two months since Charlie's death I still can't get over it the screams the yelling, the cries of my father, Nick and I when we found out that he was gone I keep getting flashbacks and night terrors about that day and sometimes I wish I could go away. Sometimes I wish that I died. Not Charlie I miss the fights that we had. I miss the arguments. I missed the times when we used to get angry at each other. I didn't even go to his funeral because I didn't except the fact that he was gone. I didn't wanna think that he was gone because deep down he want want me to be happy, but how can I when he's not here but I am I wish Mom  knew how much I loved him but he's gone