Selfish love

Episode 1

A boy was sitting on his bed, impatiently waiting for a call. Fidgeting his fingers and biting his lips harshly. His eyes were stuck on the wall clock.

   He was sweating with fear, adrenaline rushed through his body, and he was about to do something that would ruin his entire life, relationship, and everything, but he had no other choice left. If he doesn’t do it on time, it will cost him his life. He has to take a life to save his existence.

   He was being cruel and selfish. although it was killing him inside. He was hurt and guilty yet was helpless too. He never wanted to take this step, but sometimes it’s not in our hands; it’s written in fate, and no one can change it at any cost.

   He was deep in thought when the door opened to reveal his love standing there with a bunny smile on his face, and a flower bouquet in his hands. 

Jungkook: “Hi baby”                                 Tae:” Kook you’re home this early, is everything okay,” He asked, tensed and shocked not expecting his husband to be at home this early 

Jungkook came closer to tae he put his hand on his waist and pulled him closer,they were just few inches apart                                                                                                            Jungkook:” Why," he asked with a grin on his face "ain’t you’re happy seeing me here??"
 Tae: "no it’s not like this um i .. just didn’t expect you to be here this early. "                                     Jungkook: "ahh taeahhh why you’re like this so careless I told you yesterday we will go for shopping"                                                                                                                   Tae:"ohh yeah i forgot… sorry" he said feeling extremely messed up, jungkook sighed and started pushing him gently towards the bathroom 

Jungkook :"silly boy but i love him" he said whispering in an inaudible voice. He was lost in his thoughts when a sudden noise stole his attention. It was Taehyung's phone. Without wasting any time he reached for the phone without taking a glance over who was calling taehyung ,he brought the phone near his ear before he can say anything a voice from other side of the phone  interrupt him. whatever he was going to say was stuck in his throat .His whole world crashed in just mere seconds he felt vulnerable anger rushed through his veins  

Few minute later taehyung came out of the bathroom fully dressed 

 Taehyung's pov 

 I Came out still nervous how I will handle everything I know I messed up the timings now it's impossible to resist jungkook  I looked at jungkook he was sitting with his head hung low between his shoulder I called him several times but got no response and then he showed me my phone, pure anger visible on his face My heart stopped beating I felt myself shaking fear rushed through me 

   Taehyung:" j.jungkook" I lost my words I know what his eyes are searching for. My answer my damn answer .his eyes are blood red there's only rage and anger I can find no love in them I can't find myself in them 

Jungkook:" tell me taehyung what the fuck is this " he almost shouted on me but I have no courage left to face him to explain him. 

Authors pov :

Taehyung stood there silent tears start rolling down his cheeks 

Jungkook:" tae why you're not answering me tell me it's not true please say something "  jungkook pleaded almost at the verge if crying 

Taehyung: "kooki I..I'm sorry please I ..i can explain .. " taehyung said sobbing not able to say something words resisting to come out from his mouth 

Jungkook:" what will you explain ?? Just fucking stay away taehyung " he said with hate visible in his voice. He left broken and sobbing taehyung behind .

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  Authors pov :   

Few week later 

Taehyung was sitting at the window bay, staring outside. He was lost somewhere, thinking deeply about the documents which he saw last night. He closed his eyes, remembering his past. A wave of guilt washed over him, and a tear fell from his eyes. Outside, it was still dark, and everything was as usual for the morning. Nothing seems special to him, but he loves seeing the moment when the sun's upper rim appears on the horizon in the morning. The rising sun cast a rosy hue across the morning sky. The light scattered everywhere. The sun shone brilliantly in the clear blue sky. White, fluffy clouds drifted across the clear, blue sky. He spared a glance towards the bed to see if Jungkook was still sleeping or not.

He was in deep thought when disturbed by the sound of the door closing. Jungkook was already up and went to the washroom to do his morning routine. He came out and started getting ready. Tae was watching his every single move. and Jungkook was ignoring Tae as if he didn't exist at all. After fighting with his inner self finally, Tae gathered all his courage and asked him a question.

Tae: "Jungkook, are you going to divorce me after the baby is born?"

Jungkook remained silent and focused on fixing his tie.

Tae:" I asked something, give me the damn answer." He asked, getting annoyed by Jungkook's behaviour.

Jungkook: "Hm…what else do you expect?" He asked, keeping a straight face.

Tae:" But why.…don’t you love me anymore? Tell me, are you already bored of me? Do you love somebody else? He asked with a not-so-confident and cracked voice.

Jungkook: "You don’t deserve to be loved nor you deserve to be with me."Jungkook spoke with a straight face. There was no care or love in his voice; his face was emotionless, and his voice was cold……. His words rendered Tae speechless; the only hope had been shattered. Jungkook was about to leave, but what Tae said made him freeze on the spot.

Tae: "If I  don’t deserve to be loved then I don't deserve to live. Why don’t you just kill me already so you can live peacefully…. And I'm telling you jeon I won’t give you my only child do whatever you want to do…" tae said with tears rolling down his cheeks

Jungkook:" Taehyung stop calling my child yours, you got no right to call him yours, and if you want to die then die I DON’T GIVE A DAMN!!."He yelled making tae shocked and hurt at the same time. Jungkook instantly regretted it …. When reality hit him he immediately realised that what he said was absolute shit ..he left the room leaving broken and shocked Tae behind…..At this moment Tae really wanted to die but he wasn’t cruel enough to kill his own child just because he doesn't want to live anymore