hiii, i am super sorry i haven't uploaded any diaries recently... i've just honestly been overwhelmed by current situations, i have been getting involved in drama and more. i'm sorry to inform you but i no longer have a crush, he has a girlfriend and i respect that. i've restarted all the codenames i ever had so the past codenames i can use on other people, my life has been going downhill but at the same time uphill. it has been going up and down. either way, whenever i have crushes, they seem to cause a problem. my feelings that i can't control fall for people, and those people can make me have drama just because of it. i don't feel like writing much, i'm in the track team. we've won the all-city championship, and i'm doing this cross roading thing where you run two miles. i also really hate everyone and everything, it seems as if i'm in my emo phase but i'm not, everybody just irritates me. honestly, i've been getting neglected by both my friends and family. then again it may seem like i get a lot of attention and fair treatment but i don't, i always get left out and get treated unfairly. i just really hate it, it's so annoying like seriously. i fucking hate everyone and everything so much, i just don't think i deserve this life anymore. i'll see you next time, in the next diary. see you.
- MAY 12, 2023
