Nosedive

The End

I texted Penny the screenshot of Penny saying I'm annoying and asked why , did i do something wrong ,if yes then please ,help me correct it . Penny being the sweet girl texted me you aren't being yourself ,and i like the real you more , so i showed her the real me .The bully , The asshole ,the unlov....able but she said its good you learnt from your mistakes . I talked with her again ,i couldn't stop talking ,and then she obviously ghosted me due to me talking too much ...well let's not be disheartened ,She's a nerd ,she is probably studying for getting into college ( WHICH I SHOULD DO AS WELL , DO IT U DUMBASS)
Then November 28th walking down the road filled with fallen leaves i made an impulsive decision while walking home with Penny

Me  :ahmmmm... Penny 
P     : yea, Richard 
Me  : how i say this ahmm........
P     :what???
      *hands a letter and runs away *
P    : Richard,WAIITT!!

*Penny reads the letter*

Later that day,She texted me ,She was flabbergasted from the text but She said yes.

Some days Later
We both sat and drank coffee together,"Hey Richard,You know this is a figment of your imagination and I said no i just wanna be friends and don't see u that way".

I said yes ,blankly staring into my PC's screen while playing some games ,and Alice's words in my head rang true, and i started believing that ,I took my anger out on my friends , I made relationships break up of my surface level friends ,but then i saw myself in the mirror 

Sunken eyes , i took revenge on friends who tried using me but i felt empty .
Sometime later during January i saw one of the guys i broke down , and i saw a piece of me 

I had again BECOME THE VERY THING I SWORE TO DESTORY.
Jaesa reassured me that "i'm a good guy" quite a bit but the worst critic , me was never satisfied 

But i atleast ,I'll pass my exams , Atleast i will be successful ,RIGHTT?!?!?

In my path of revenge i lost the exam which i could have easily won 

I felt shit, worthless ,a disgrace to my family so i did what i never thought i would , I went to the top of my house ,looked down below and took THE NOSEDIVE

Now again we're  where we started at,The wind brushing past my face , a sharp pain and it's over
But something's wrong , IM STILL ALIVE?!?!?!

But i see my body ,blood dripping down my skull, I AM A FUCKING GHOST .

So i didn't know what to do , i couldn't touch anything ,i couldn't go to hell .. i mean heaven , I just walked around , and visited my friends 

Adam drank alot of liquor and passed out but still whispered, ".....why did Frost do that "
Sam had locked himself up and wasn't coming out of his room ,he sat there holding back tears
Alice and Alyssa consoled each other , no words just hugging each other 

Kevin , Andrew , Ian and Lucas just talked about me after school and just kept thinking ,why i did it 

And ....Penny blamed herself and hit herself "NO PENNY PLEASE STOP YOU ARE ONE OF THE SWEETEST PEOPLE I KNOW PLEASE STOP" but my cries went unheard 

I went to Ami's house but saw nothing 

On the day of my funeral , I arrived late , ironic isn't it .The cloud were dark and I saw my Mum crying banging my coffin , i rushed to hug her but couldn't ,"NOO NOO NOO THIS IS ALL WRONG",i said but i couldn't do the one thing i loved hugging my mother ,seeing her so sad ,I screamed " I WANNTT TO  GOOO BACKK".Suddenly i was back at the ledge ,I climbed back down and rushed to Mum and hugged her as the first thing to do , I cried and said I'll make her proud,She said in her comforting voice i know .

Another year passed and i have started to heal ,i passed my exam and went to college .It was perfect ,i knew i deserved love and felt better than ever ,and never thought of harming myself ever again

One fine evening i went to a subway ,and ordered my usual chicken sub ,then out of nowhere Ami sits infront of me and says " So how was The Nosedive ,Mr Frost?", " WHAT THE FUCK AMI"
Oh I'm sorry Richard i forgot to tell you my full name ShinagAMI

THE END