'Day after day, night after night, he waited patiently for things to finally go better. It didn't, never. Instead, it felt as if an infernal spiral took possession of his mind and body. It all became too much of a habit to even startle him anymore...
"Pff, we've been studying for more than an hour. Can't we take a break?"
"Don't we have a chemistry quiz tomorrow? Its getting late and a heavy rain will begin around 11 o'clock. You should leave before that. We are almost out of time but you've got to learn much more things. Do you still want to take a break?"
"Well, only 5 minutes?"
"Whatever."
Jaehan breathed a sigh of relief. And Yechan just rolled his eyes. Jaehan stood up from the sofa that he was sitting and looked around.
"Is that your mother? She is so pretty and nifty. I like these sunglasses!" Said Jaehan while staring at a beautiful woman's photo which inside a fancy frame.
"Stop messing around. You are not allowed to do or ask anything."
Yechan's voice was colder than usual.
"Did i say something wrong?"
"Can't you just shut up for a moment?"
"Sorry."
Yechan led a hard breath go before he got up and went to the bathroom. He locked to door and leaned aganist the wall. The boy's heart was hurting. It was hurting so bad. He had totally forgot about the photo which Jaehan found. It was her mother's photo before the day she died. It was her last photo. She was really pretty that day.
Yechan could never forget that day. His mother looked gorgeous with her trendy sunglasses, light pink hat, long and white summer dress, short curly hair, as red as cherry lips and gentle smile.
"Can you forgive me mom..?" Yechan though while shutting his teary eyes with softly sniffing.
"Yechan, are you alright?"
No, he wasn't. But he had to act like there was nothing wrong. He shouldn't have been so dramatic when someone is around.
"I'm alright."
Yechan immediately went towards the sink to wash his face. His eyes were already red. The boy didn't know what could he do. He would never want to seem that weak in front of someone.
While Yechan was washing his face, the lights suddenly turned off. He wondered if Jaehan played with lights or was it a power cut.
"Kim Jaehan, did you turn off the lights?"
"Nope, i didn't. I guess there is a power outage because of the storm."
Yeah, that was possible. He quietly thanked god that lights were off. So Jaehan wouldn't be able to see his red eyes.
The boy got out of the bathroom and saw Jaehan was packing up his stuffs to his bag while his phone's flash was illuminating around.
"What are you doing?"
"I got to go before the storm gets heavy."
Yechan checked outside from the window. It was already heavily raining.
"You can't go outside while its raining that hard."
"I thought you hate me."
"I do. But i'm not that heartless to let you go in this heavy rain. I wouldn't want you to be ill."
Jaehan stopped packing up and glanced Yechan.
"Did i do something wrong? Well, i'm sorry for earlier. I don't really know what made you feel that bad but i'm sorry. I didn't mean it, you know."
Yechan took a deep breath and said nothing. Just nodded.
"Okay.. will you tell me why you hate me? Maybe i could change what you don't like about me, huh? Don't isolate yourself so much from people. If you don't like something, just say it." Said Jaehan and held Yechan's hand.
Yechan was confused. His heart was beating so fast which he didn't know why. Perhaps it was because of no one has acted that close to him since he was a little kid?
The tears inside Yechan's eyes appeared again. He noticed that he really needed someone to comfort him even just a little bit. But Yechan could not accept his comfort or anything. Jaehan knew nothing about him. They both had an actual conversation just today anyways.
"Why do you care so much about me? Didn't we just meet? You don't even know me." Said Yechan without removing his hand from Jaehan's.
"You are so wrong with that, Shin Yechan. Yeah, thats right we hadn't had a truly conversation before. But i know you more than you think. I know that you don't sleep so much at nights, you have a part time job at a cafe on mondays and wednesdays but i'm not sure if you work other days too. You are obsessed with listening to music because it helps you to escape from reality so from your problems, you don't like studying but you do it just because of you want to the teachers' to be proud of you when you pass the tests or exams or something because you think they are the only ones who care about you. You always use the bathroom to cry when you can't hold yourself anymore at school. You act cold to everyone but you are such a kind person instead of it. You just don't show it to anyone because someone hurt you really bad erstwhile and you don't know how to heal yourself. You just play the cold boy role. Do you want me to contuniue?"
Yechan held his breath while listening to Jaehan. It was as if his blood had frozen. He wasn't expecting to hear all of these from a random boy in his class.
"Tell me if i'm wrong. Oh, but its not like i was spying on you. It just..felt wrong that there were no one around you when you were literally having serious mental breakdowns... No one saw and so cared about it. But i did. I did and still do, Shin Yechan. I tried to get close to you. Even though you always rejected, i tried to get close step by step though. When you seemed like this stuation was bothering you, i never tried again, until today. I just wanted things to go better for you. All i wanted was this, i swear. If you weren't keep rejecting me, we wouldn't be strangers to each other like today. But you probably just thought that i was one of those annoying people. And even though i know lots of things about you, i'm sure there are still tons of things that you are hiding from everyone. You don't have to do it. Well, you won't talk about your actual feelings that easily, i know. But just..just know that i'm always here, by your side. Don't hesitate to talk to me. I can listen to all of your problems everyday, all day long."
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I have no clue of what i wrote tbh🥹 i wrote this chapter at the midnight its literally 03.54 am rn😭 but im gonna publish it tomorrow around 5-6 pm i guess. IDK WHY🧍♀️(i published it exactly at 05.20 pm yess)
Sorry if i did any mistakes while writing this chapter :'
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