Fanfic Tośka/Tosiek x fem!Oc/ Hanna Koch

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There will be a TW showing sh cuts and scars so if your uncomfortable I'm really sorry it won't be for that long

Sh=Self harm just so the people who don't know.

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I sat on the school bathroom floor
puking up all the food I ate.

I groan as my stomach starts hurting"Ach verdammt"I say I hear someone else walk in.

( Translation German to English "Damn it")

"Hanna?" Tośka calls out.

"Yup I'm in here" I respond back.

I start throwing up again. As tears stream down my cheeks.

I hear one of the voices say"Kill yourself" and another one saying "your acting like a fool" I bang my head against the wall to make them stop.

I hear Tośka start puking and another kid coming in.

"The fuck is wrong with people why is everyone coming in to puke" I say.

I hear the other kid puking.
"This is just fuckin gross y'all good over there" I say as I take out my pills from my bag.

I clean up and I wipe down my face.
I stumble out of the stall running into Tośka.
"Woah you okay there?"
She askes holding my arm so I don't fall.

"Yeah I'm fine I just... I don't have anymore pills"
I manage to say without stuttering.

"Maybe you should stop taking so much"
Tośka says in a annoyed voice.

"You know what... Fick dish"
I say to her walking out of the bathroom.

( Translation German to English "Fuck you")

I go to the auditorium seeing nobody in there.
I sit in a empty chair strolling through my phone.

I look at my wrists feeling the bandages on them.
"Hanna..."
I hear Tośka say in a hushed voice.

"No... I don't want to hear it Tośka all you say to me is 'maybe your taking to many pills' or 'you need to stop cutting yourself' so be quiet okay... "
I yell at her scared that she will yell back.

"Hanna i-"
Tośka starts talking but I walk out of the auditorium.

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TIME SKIP BROUGHT TO YOU BY THE STOLEN BIKE
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I walk to a store to get some juice but I see Tośka.
I side eye her as I grab my juice.

I walk up to the cashier.
"Will that be all today?"
The cashier says scanning the juice.

"Yeah... Uh do you have any vodka?"
I ask the cashier and she gives me a dirty look.
I give her my ID.

"I'm 18 see"
I say to her tapping my ID.

She gives me a bottle of vodka and my juice.
"Thanks"
I say walking away putting my card and ID in my wallet.

"Hanna!"
I hear Matylda say my name.
I look at her and then I started walking home.

"Hanna...what are you doing with the vodka mh"
She says but I keep walking.
"Hey are you okay?"
She askes grabbing my hand.

"I'm fine I'm just out of pills I can't get anymore til next week"
I explain to her as I walk.

I feel her put something in my hand.
I look at what she put in my hand and it's a poly pin.

"Thanks I guess."
I say to her in a quiet voice.
I keep walking but she keeps talking.

"Why are you going home I thought you sleep with Tośka?"
She askes as we walk to my house.

"We got in a fight so..."
I tell her unlocking my door.
I walk into my house and I drop my bag on the floor.

I walk to the kitchen and I pour me a cup of vodka. As Matylda stares at me.

"What do you want some?"
I ask her pouring her a cup.
"Here drink up"

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Time skip AGAIN
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Me and Matylda lay on the couch with the bottle of vodka on the floor empty.

"Ah shit we have school tomorrow"
I say and I look at her.
"You should go home"

Matylda gets up from the couch
"See you tomorrow Han Han"
She calls me a stupid nickname and I roll my eyes.

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IN ZE MORNING
6:37 am
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I get up from the couch with a bad headache.
I manage to stumble to the bathroom and get dressed in black baggy sweatpants and a tank top.

I brush my hair and fix it up a bit.
I walk out of the bathroom and put on my black converses and I sling my bag over my shoulder.

I grab makas bag and calls her to get in the bag.
I put on the bag but it's in front of me.

I walk out of the house and I see Tośka standing outside.i lock my house door and I start walking.

"Hanna please I'm sorry... I'm sorry okay just listen to me please!"
Tośka apologizes to me as I walk.

"I forgive you..."

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I hope you guys liked this chapter I haven't watched the movie in a while so

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