𝓛𝓘𝓕𝓔 𝓤𝓟𝓓𝓐𝓣𝓔𝓢

Why this dream?!😭😖

16 June it is...

Today, approx 5.30pm, I was sleeping due to being stress & also, I had my head in my mother's lap so obviously...sleep took over me...

I had a dream, a very bizarre dream...which i regret dreaming!😖🤧

In the dream, I saw that it's been 3-3.5 years since my father passed away, but all of a sudden HE CAME BACK and our lives got back to normal...

On one normal day (in the dream), my mom was lying on the clean floor, the way she used to do in summer afternoons. And my father went to his office (he knows that we all considered that he won't ever come back).

Me - Mummy, ek baar papa ko phone karke puchh lo, thik to hain na?

Mummy - To puchh, main puchhungi to chidenge ki baar - baar phone karke pareshan kar rahi hoon.

I nodded and called my dad. But hung up the call before he could pick it up, thinking that he might get angry that I'm acting as if I'm his mother, not daughter. But then, he himself called and I picked up.

Papa - Vidhi, phones ke recharge karane hain?

Me (controlling my tears) - Nahi

Papa - TV ka recharge?

Me (controlling my tears) - Na.. Nahi!

Papa - Arre waah, main to chhui-mui si bachhi chhodke gaya tha, mera Viddha itna bada ho gaya!

And with this, I cried while sleeping. I realised that when he was there, I never knew how to do these technical things, I never knew how to use ATMs n all. But now... I'm now doing it all, because he's gone!! Everyone says that I'm just a ditto copy of him and that makes me the proudest!!!🤧🥺

I was sobbing in my dream and my mother saw this. She woke me up & when I told her everything and ended up breaking down into tears.

I'm like why God, why???? 😭

My mom said ki ye sab na sirf serials mein hota hai, asal zindagi mein bhagwaan ke paas se koi vapis nahi aata!

I.. I can't tell how much I'm crying while writing this. I didn't had the courage to tell my mom about the last thing he said but I'm just missing the way he used to call me 'Viddhaa' with so much love. The way he used to praise me even when I looked like a complete jhalli.❤️🤧

It's father's day on 18th and I still remember the last father's day we celebrated with him. 😖

I'm missing him like hell!😭😭😭

Huff...byee!