𝓛𝓘𝓕𝓔 𝓤𝓟𝓓𝓐𝓣𝓔𝓢

Wanna open up 🥺

1 November 2023,

A new month, with old scars!

So, finally the month which is hated by both me and mom has come again...kyu aa jate ho bhai har saal!? 😖

(Sorry to those jinka birthday November mein aata ho😅)

You know things have gotten up very tough for me in the last 2-3 days. I'm not able to concentrate on anything!!

5 din ki chutti mein se 2 barbaad kardi after a lot of planning about to-do things!😭

Honestly the thing is..you guys are my  family! More than my real family, I share and open-up with this Watty family of mine🥹🫶
So thought of share what's troubling me since past few days.

It's about a guy! Not my school ex-crush definitely...
We were in an online relationship since a month and were kinda a good in it. We were totally invested. Though itna koi 'true love' nahi hua tha, atleast mujhe to nahi but ya...I had this thing in my mind that yess..there's someone who's asking me about my health, whereabouts and everything ✨

Long late night chats, understanding each other's' priorities, knowing about likes-dislikes and some time flirty stuff as well..🥲
But I never knew that it's gonna lead me here.
I can't tell exactly kya hua but jo bhi hua, it left me disturbed!!!

Main bhale hi you know totally love mein nahi thi, but...I was some where having nice feelings for that guy and his behaviour. 🫤I understand ki 'love' nahi tha but atleast main sachi to thi, unlike him!!💔

This month already has a lot of bad memories attached cos this is the month when my dad was tested for COVID positive, when my dad was admitted in the hospital, when I saw him for the last time and I lost him...

This month brings a disturbance in my head, mood swings and a rollercoaster of emotions...😭
Just wanted some here bcos mere pre-boards bhi aa rahe hain, so...

I just wanted to tell that I want some break! Life or studies se to mil nahi sakta isliye Wattpad se chahiye.
Don't worry... Vivaah update karke, ek update DDLA mein bhi dedungi. But time lagega aur thoda zyada hi time..

Coming back to that guy,
Mujhe laga nahi tha ki I'd be feeling so disturbed kinda just thinking about him. Bahot koshish kar rahi hoon to stop it, but nothing's helping.
I don't want you guys to curse him or something because he's already fighting a big battle!
It's just that the....info I got about him and whatever happened is actually very thrilling..💔😭

Just aap sabke saath thoda dukh share karna chah rahi thi. Vaise to no one cares but if you guys feel attached then...thoda pray-shray kardena..uske betterment ke liye. Mere usse koi rishta nahi hai, but insaniyat ka rishta to hai na.

I've got to know that he's in the hospital fighting for life..vaise to I don't believe it lekin agar ye sach hai to..I want him to be all ok!🥀💕 Bus mere peeche na aaye🥲

Aur ek baat sachi-sachi batana.. Kabhi-kabhi annoying ya pakau lagne lagti hoon kya??
Yaar..main na khud se bhi bahot upset hoon ki andho ki tarah bharosa kara uspe. And itna bewakoof koi kaise ho sakta hai!!!!🤦😖

Byeee👋
Singing off
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