Regressor Instruction Manual (PART 4)

Chapter 754: To The End (13)

Nothing changed when I looked at him again. It was so ridiculous that I even laughed, so what else did I need to say?

'Kim Hyunsung's mental growth, my ass.'

"..."

'This bastard's problem is almost a chronic mental illness, really.'

"..."

'I was the idiot. I was the idiot.'

When I thought about it again, I still got disconcerted.

I felt like an idiot who praised him for regaining his reason after being completely crazy. I thought Lee Kiyoung, who considered him as having achieved some inner growth after he came to his senses, was an idiot.

'I thought you really grew. There was no such thing as inner growth. No, I think you've grown, but you took the wrong route.'

When I thought about it a little, I realized that it couldn't be the case. It would've been big trouble if it wasn't for the Regressor's Instruction Manual. Things almost became complicated.

It was really weird indeed. Kim Hyunsung wouldn't suddenly say that he wanted me to support him.

It felt a bit unnatural when he said he needed my help in the first place.

Did it make sense that Kim Hyunsung, who had been stubborn so far and blocked communication since he was worried that it would be too much for my body, suddenly asked me to join him?

He was someone who felt guilty for leaving me the burden instead of sharing it, even more so when I recalled that Lee Kiyoung, from Kim Hyunsung's perspective, was a very endangered and sickly bird who might die at any time.

I almost completely forgot about it, but the memory loss gimmick was still active.

I didn't know what medicine he took but suddenly saying that he needed my help... I thought it was because he decided he really needed it. However, basically, it was because of the thought that that was his final duty.

He thought it was advantageous to end the war as soon as possible.

Perhaps there was something like compensation psychology going on here. It was an expression that he wanted to communicate with me one last time before he wrapped everything up.

Perhaps it was something like a bucket list. Hyunsiung decided what was happening was going to be his final moments, and if he fought alone, his end would be lonely.

'You got back to your senses to film a self-sacrificial ending? Why? I don't know which wind got to you, who was always running away, to suddenly blabber about sacrifice.'

"..."

'Wow, I really want to open his head.'

I had already opened the half, but I didn't have enough skill to catch all the very detailed thoughts. Still, there were things I could understand even if I wasn't certain of the other half.

What he was thinking and what psychological state he was in was clearly visible. I couldn't pinpoint it accurately, but when I felt the past or emotions he had experienced...

'It's obvious.'

If I pretended to be Kim Hyunsung for a moment, I would be thinking along the lines of:

'I think I've only run away so far. Even though I knew what role I had been given and had to fulfill, I turned away from it. Now I think I know why I returned. I will no longer run away. I'll face everything head-on.'

Right. He ran away. But what about it? Did someone point a knife at him not to run away? People were allowed to retreat and avoid. What was wrong with him?