Devilish Pastimes: Sam's poetry book

"Yesterday"

I told you I was fine,
I told you that I'm alright,
I told you that I am cold,
I told you to be bold
I told you to be wise
To learn a lesson from a legend
Born from pain
Mist
Everything bad to ever exist
Me, you, a demon maybe
A crazy crying banshee...
Cause she cries outloud
IT HURTS!
I AM NEVER LISTENING TO ANY WORDS!
I LOVE YOU AS I CRY!
I CRY OUT THAT I DON'T WANNA LOVE!
I WANTED TO LOVE
MY FAMILY
YOU
EVERYONE ELSE BUT ME!
NOT ME
CAUSE I AM NOT LOVED
AS I WAS NEVER LOVED.
I DON'T KNOW TO LOVE.
I AM SICK BECAUSE OF HATE
I AM SICK BECAUSE OF EVERY MONTHS HATE
NOT JUST PRIDE MONTH IN JUNE NOT MAY
CAUSE I AIN'T PROUD AND I DON'T WANT TO HATE
I DON'T PRIDE WITH MYSELF FOR BEING
THE VICTIM OF LOTS OF PEOPLE'S PAIN
FEELINGS OF BEING
WORTHLESS
FORGOT
SAD.
NOT JUST MOM'S DISGUST
A STARE
SOMEONE TO EVEN DARE
TO JUDGE ME AND US AGAIN!
I AM SICK!
I AM SICK AND I CRY OUT:
I AM SICK IT HURTS ME SO MUCH
I WANT IT OUUUUT!
I CRIED AS I WANTED MYSELF OUT!
I SCREAMED SO MUCH THAT I FELL ASLEEP
NOT RISING AGAIN FROM ETERNAL SLEEP
AND A HEADACHE AS I SLEPT AGAIN
OVERDOSED TOO MUCH AGAIN.
I AM SORRY AGAIN.
I CAN'T BE TOO GOOD AGAIN!
A POISON IVY FROM POISON AND HATE BORN
HAS A SPINE!
I AM NOT A BORE!
I AM NOT A TOY
I'M NOT THEIR TOY!
I AM NOT A PUPPET
"BARBIE DOLL"
I WAS CALLED THAT BY MY MOM
AND I AM SO SICK I WANT MY FACE CUT OFF.
I WANT IT CARVED OUT LIKE MY EYES
I WANT EVERYTHING I DESPISE
TO BE GONE!
I WANT MYSELF GONE.
I PERSONALLY WANNA RUN
WITH YOU AWAY
FROM ME
FROM THEM.
JUST ANYWHERE.
PLEASE.
ANYWHERE ANYWAY,
I WANNA LEAVE FOREVER
YET I STAY.
YET I SUFFER AND I STAY
FORGIVE ME IF I MAY STAY
WITH YOU AGAIN LIKE YESTERDAY.
"YESTERDAY" by Sam