𝐣𝐣 𝗺𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐢𝗺𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 ✰

"𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐭"

"the exit" - there's a party and y/n is singing with her band for it (like milo in tsitp). she plays the new song that she wrote when JJ broke up with her.
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i obviously didn't write The Exit, Conan Gray did
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y/n pov

i shake my hands my sides out of nerves.

JJ recently broke up with me because he loves another girl and i wrote a song about it and me and my band are gonna perform it tonight.

we walk up onto the makeshift stage that was made for us. my eyes jump all across the crowd, seeing that there's more people here than i thought.

i feel a hand on my shoulder, i spin around and see my band mate, Ryan.

"it's gonna be okay. you're gonna be amazing" he smiles softly at me and i smile back.

me and Ryan are pretty close and he knows how nervous i get when we perform.

i turn back around and hear the music start to play.

february, and the flowers haven't even wilted
it's crazy how fast you tilted
the word that we were busy buildin'

i start singing, trying not to look at many people.

mid-november, and i'm sippin' on a half-cold coffee
starin' at a girl who's not me
on your arm, a carbon copy

i dart my eyes from person to person, trying to find my best friend.

feels like we had matching wounds
but mines still black and bruised
and yours is perfectly fine now
feels like we buried alive
something that never died
so god, it hurt when i found out

my eyes land on her and i stay, staring into her eyes. the green orbs bringing be comfort.

you love her, it's over
do you even doubt it on your lips?
(what do you say, say)
you love her, it's over
you already found someone to miss
while i'm still standin' at the exit

i get more comfortable singing just like i always do.

(oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
i'm still standin' at the exit
(oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh)

my eyes continue to stare into my best friends, never leaving them for a second.

i can't hate you for gettin' everything we wanted
i just thought that I would be part of it
i was movin' into your apartment

my eyes continue to move around again. looking at people faces, heads, hair.

when you met someone, she's from your hometown
i hate the East Coast, it's where you live now
impossible to understand how you're not comin' back
but I can't say it out loud

i start to get more emotional and more into the song as it goes on.

you love her, it's over
do you even doubt it on your lips?
(what do you say, say)
you love her, it's over
you already found someone to miss
while i'm still standin' at the exit
(oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
i'm still standin' at the exit
(oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh)

as my eyes continue to move around they land on a familiar pair of blue ones.

they stare back at me, not breaking eye contact for a second.

feels like we had matching wounds
but mines still black and bruised
and yours is perfectly fine now
feels like we buried alive
something that never died
so god, it hurt when i found out

i sing as i continue to stare at JJ's blue eyes, not messing up at note.

you love her (feels like we had matching wounds)
it's over (but mine's still black and bruised)
do you even doubt it on your lips? (and yours is perfectly fine now)
(when you say it, say it?)
you love her (feels like we buried alive)
it's over (something that never died)
you already found someone to miss (so, god, it hurt when I found out)

i finish the song, still staring at JJ.

i walk off the stage and then immediately run out of there.

the tension. the song. his eyes. it was all too much.

i think about what just happened as i, yet again, stand at the exit.

a/n
not the best but yk

idk how much i'll be updating, a lot is going on for me rn but i'll try

have a good day <3