I’M AN 18 YEAR OLD COVID 19 POSITIVE
Yes, you read it right.
An 18 year old lady named, Autumn Altamirano. Tss. How pathetic. I’m just 18 but why me? Bakit ako ang dinapuan? Did I do something wrong? I’m fcking healthy for God’s sake!
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They bought me in a huge hospital with full of patients suffering with this pandemic. Walang emosyong nakaupo lamang ako sa wheelchair, not until I enter the entrance door.
Pity.
The exact word that I’m feelin’ right now. Seeing those people cry and beg for their lives made me so weak. Tears began to fall but I immediately wiped it. Kahit na nawala na ang basa sa aking pisngi dala ng pagluha, hindi ko mapigilang maawa para sa sarili ko. Dahil alam ko, one of these days, magmamakaawa rin ako tulad nila.
My private nurse pushed the wheelchair on my room.
Hindi nila pwedeng makita na umiiyak ako. Ayokong kaawaan nila. Yes! I have this virus who can kill me right away, but I’m strong. I have faith. They don’t need to pity me because I’m strong!
After convincing myself, I noticed my private nurse silently staring at me with no emotion in his eyes.
“Is there something wrong with my face?” walang habas na tanong ko sa kanya. Nagsisimula na akong humiga sa okyupadong kama nang magsalita sya.
“Nothing, Ma'am.” saad niya.
“Kung kakaawaan mo lang din naman ako dahil I have this virus, then leave.” sabay talikod ko sa kanya.
Narinig ko pa syang humalakhak bago nagsalita. “Scared, huh?”sarkastikong sabi niya.
Marahas akong napabangon at humarap sa kanya. “I’m not! How dare you talk to me like that? Who are you?!”
“Oh, sorry. I’m Copeland, your private nurse.” nakakalokong ngumisi pa sya.
“Really? Then go! Leave me alone! You’re just a mere nurse here so don’t fcking mess with me!”
“Aye aye, master!” nakasaludo pang saad niya bago nilisan ang kwartong iyon.
Padabog akong humiga muli at inisip ang sinabi nya. I’m not scared! Kung natatakot ako edi sana ay humagulgol na ako sa takot! Isang beses lang tumulo ang luha ko kanina at dahil lamang sa awa iyon!
‘Damn you, Copeland!’
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Three days have passed and Copeland never fail to annoy me but at the same time, he never fail to protect and take care of me. And it’s normal because he’s my nurse. I don’t want to assume. Ginagawa niya lang ang trabaho nya. Yes! He’s handsome. I sensed that even though he’s wearing a personal protective gear and I saw his identification card. He’s clean and he has a good sense of humor. He always lighten up the mood between us. And damn! He’s 5 years older than me for God’s sake! I shouldn’t fall! I shouldn’t!
Pero masisisi mo ba ako? Hindi ako pinalaki nang walang karupukan sa katawan! I’m fragile and I hate it!
I’m Autumn and I’m falling!
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He was there when that day came. I suffered when the symptoms spread my body. Stomach ache, vomiting along with a high fever, cough and shortness of breath.
I thought it was the end. I even messaged my loved ones and bid my heartbreaking goodbyes.
But Copeland was there. Like energy that gives me strength.
“This is just a nightmare, okay? You have to fight this for you to watch the sunrise tomorrow!” pangungumbinsi nya sa akin.
“Copeland, I c-can’t” nanghihinang saad ko.
“No, you can! You’re Autumn! You maybe fall, but you have to be strong! You have to find blossoms in autumns! You’re just young and you have to keep going and bloom! Your name is the season that teaches us that change can be beautiful, too! You have to be strong in order for you to survive. So please, fight!” mahabang saad nya habang nakatingin ng diretso sa aking mata. Desperasyon. Yan ang nakikita ko sa mga mata nya habang kinukumbinsi akong lumaban sa isang bagay na wala akong kasiguraduhan.
