poems of a failed situationship

scared to care

"idrc"

4 letters that i should've never typed.

i did care.

i cared when you told me about the

sports you were passionate about,

even if you said you were,

"talking too much".

i cared when you talked about

your friends,

your family,

your interests,

likes and dislikes.

i remember it all.

at some points i cared too much.

when you mentioned another girl,

be it your bsf or one that you hated

from one of your classes,

i'd get scared to show that i cared.

it felt like a trap and it always does.

it wasn't that i was jealous,

and even if i was i couldn't say it

because i didn't want to scare you

away.

anytime you'd say sorry for

not talking to me as much,

i'd get scared.

scared of losing you because i cared,

"too much".

scared of scaring you away,

making you feel obligated to talk to

me every single second of the day.

i'd say "it's fine idrc i promise",

all because i didn't want you thinking

that i cared,

all because i refused to show that i

was scared.