He never really asks or checks up on me it's as if we aren't even dating.. ______ He hasn't come home yet... It's 11PM right now... I hear the door open and smile "Minho!"i say as I smile and stand up to hug him "I miss you!!!~" I say smiling He gives me a cold expression and replies "I love you back." He said coldly I look at him and smile "Are you hungry?"i asked hoping he will say yes because I've been waiting for him to come home and eat with him "I've already eaten out."he said as he walked to the room "Okay.." I say softly knowing he probably won't hear me I went to the kitchen and took a bowl of strawberries And before I knew it Minho was behind me "Want some? I brought it for you!" 'My poor baby..he is probably not eating well'i tell myself as I hand him a bowl of strawberries "Thanks." He said eating one As he heard my stomach growl I didn't even realize it since I was distracting my hunger by scrolling through my phone "Hungry?" He said as he chuckled as I look at him "huh?" His expression changed "I said are you hungry?" He said angrily "Oh no! I'm fine!" I said smiling __________ I haven't ate anything today... After the fight we had a few weeks ago I refuse to eat.. __________ 3 weeks ago "Your literally the fattest person I've ever met." Minho said while rolling his eyes I thought that he was being sarcastic and he just wanted some of my food "I know" I said smiling and tucking my hair behind my ear sarcastically while smiling "No, really. You need to lose weight. Your overweight. It's so embarrassing when I tell my friends or far distant family that your my girlfriend!" He said and this time he sounded more serious "Okay chill I'll lose some weight!" I said wanting him to stop "I'll set up a diet for you."he said "No need I have one in mind already." Starvation ___________ Present I was laying on the couch while he was working on his MacBook "Are you hungry?" I said switching my gaze from my phone to Minho I haven't been eating anything for the past three weeks except chewing ice and drinking water "No, and didn't I tell you to focus on a diet?" He said as he got furious and looked at me "I know.. but I'm just hungry and plus I lost 13kg in three weeks." "You know wonyoung is a much suitable girlfriend than you. She is skinnier, prettier, funnier than you."he blurts out "Okay.." I say softly with an hurt expression I stood up and left to the bedroom where I just slept refusing to cry. Just in case Minho comes in. ____________ I get a message from my Older sister Jennie
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I'm so dry?
the truth is the past few days..Y/n was thinking about committing suicidal actions and to just end it.. 'Lmao' I thought to myself 'Dry' I think to myself as I chuckle Little did I know that Minho was behind me "Who are you talking to?!"minho said scaring me as I flinched from his furious tone "Jennie" I say smiling He snatched the phone away and read the texts I stared at him 'Doesn't he trust me?' 'He is scaring me...' He handed me my phone "If you ever think about cheating me just know that I'll-" "Why would I think about cheating on you? It would be a lose lose because you are my first and last love" He rolled his eyes and left _________ 5days later 'I'm starving' I thought to myself It's been a month since I ate and I've seen some big changes I'm skinnier than both Jennie and wonyoung.. Atleast Minho won't be ashamed of me anymore, right? But my mental health isn't the best _______ Some hours later "Are you hungry" I asked Minho smiling "Kind of... I can handle" he said not while focusing on his MacBook "Let's eat out today. My treat!" I say smiling, hungry, and most definitely STARVING! "I think you should lose more weight.. just lose more weight. it isn't hard, but you need to make a more stricter diet than you already are doing" little did he know that the diet I'm doing is strict, and deadly.
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"I can't handle this anymore" I cried out as I start panting for air and holding my stomach. I went to the kitchen and sat on the table as I took out a bowl with ice and started chewing them. a few minutes later I hear the door open and see minus figure standing in the corner "are you eating?!?!" he says as his eyes widens in anger "n-no! its ice!" I say showing him the bowl and what's inside it. his expression changes to angry to worried "why would you be taking out ice?" he says confused "that's the only diet that can make me lose weight faster and that's what I did! that's what you asked for and I'm doing what you wanted" I said with a big smile on my face proudly. "Thats was your diet the whole time?!?!" he said with a shout "yeah" I say softly as I feel my heart beat faster scared 'what did I do?' 'did I say something wrong?!' 'great job Y/N! you've mad Minho angry.' but I didn't expect what would happen next. he quickly went to our room and took the fridge keys and unlocked the fridge and opened it "take what you want.. anything.." he says as a guilt expression was printed on his face, "I don't want anything, thank for checking up on me though!" "Y/N this isn't good for you! you might die or end up in the hospital!" 'it doesn't matter" "YES IT DOES!" I flinched. I'm used to him shouting and raising his hand on me. butI don't know what got on me that made me flinch. "I'm sorry" I said as my voice cracked from how scared I was "done be.. just eat..." he said handing me the drink I used to be obsessed with before my diet. chocolate milk "when was the last time you ate?"Minho asked as I was drinking the chocolate milk. I paused for a second counting "probably a month ago." his eyes widened
MINHOS POV 'did my words really do a huge impact on her mindset?' 'I shouldn't have commented about her weight like that' he couldn't hold back and burst out crying
"I'm sorry I really am" Minho burst out crying as his voice cracks "don't be! why are you crying?!?!"I stopped drinking and looked at Minho 'maybe its because I am drinking again?' I moved aside the chocolate milk and stood up with all my strength to hold his hand. I know damn well he will push me away, but its worth trying right? "my baby...your so different..." he starts sobbing and hugging me tightly
"I'm sorry for commenting about your weight like that! I promise ill never say something like that!.. I just got jealous that all my friends and cousins and even my siblings had skinny girlfriends or wives and I got jealous and I wondered why you weren't skinny so I thought if I tell you that your fat and your gaining to much weight- I didn't think that you would loose that much weight.. I thought..If I start making comments about your weight..you would encourage yourself to loose weight and I can brag you to all my friends...I felt ashamed having you as my girlfriends because of your weight- I'm so sorry! I'm miss the old you, where you used to always smile even when I was angry just to lighten up the mood. when you would make my favorite food when I'm angry at you. I'm so stupid.. all I cared about was your appearance and not your personality.. I was too blinded by jealousy that I couldn't even see how unique you are. your smart, pretty from in and out, funny, and you always listen to what people tell you to do, you are the first one of apologies and you make me so happy. your so perfect. I'm so stupid for thinking that all that mattered about a girl is her appearance.. even with everything I do to you. you still manage to love me and never leave me. even with all the abuse and violence and bad talk I give you, you repay me back with kindness." Minho said while sobbing and taking sniffs and stuttering within each 20 seconds "you done need to be sorry. I should be the one apologizi-"Minho cuts you off "stop acting like your the wrong person when you clearly aren't!"Minho cuts me out. "my baby..." he said as he bursts out crying again"I've ruined you, I'm so sorry..." he said crying loudly and hugging me tightly. I cupped his face and he looked at me with red eyes and tears roaming down his cheeks "at least I'm skinny now! maybe I can loose more weight. I can be more like your cousin Yukyung! I'm she's only 3kg less than me!-" "no!no! your perfect!"
