𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐈𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐁𝐋𝐄 [𝐣.𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫]

quick intermission!

hello my lovelies!!

I am so, so, sorry I know this isn't the update you wanted!! but not to worry, chapter 37 is coming very soon!!

I just wanted to take a little time to come on here and thank each and every one of you who has come on here and supported me and my little fic. as we near 300k reads, I find myself just so in awe of the fact that people enjoy reading about brigitte and james and their silly little adventures.

to anyone who has ever commented something kind on my story, whether it be one time or multiple, thank you so much for encouraging me, and for brightening my day. I appreciate each and every one of you!! I don't always respond to comments (though I try my best to), but I absolutely try to read every single one.

I haven't said this in the past because I didn't want to reveal my age on the internet, but now I'm a little older and I think it's more okay now. I started this book at twelve, when troubled, emo little lainy was struggling with a lot of anxiety and found her solace between the pages of harry potter. this means that a lot of my writing, especially from earlier chapters, tends to be pretty cringy. I can't bring myself to read anything that I've published, especially not from when I was so little.

I've come a long way from then. I have an amazing group of friends, for a while I had the most amazing boyfriend in the world, and I no longer struggle with the anxiety and ocd that plagued a lot of my tweendom (mostly). I've talked in one of the previous chapters about how my motivations to write this book shifted from it being a coping mechanism to simply being something I love and adore. and that's all still true! this book formed so much of my early teenage years, and it'll always hold a special place in my heart.

don't get me wrong, there are a LOT of things I'd change about this book. like a lot. who knows, someday I might go back and rewrite this story. something I've contemplated is changing this story and getting it published as an actual book somewhere down the line (down a very long line). but for right now, I just want to work on completing TDOI and see what else is next!

thank you all for being so kind and lovely to twelve year old me. 

in a time where the world was really scary and didn't make sense, you guys gave me a safe place.

now, onto a few orders of business:

1) would y'all be interested if I made a tiktok acc for this page? as a gen z-er, that's probably my most used social media platform. I think it'd be really silly to just have another place for us to connect. 

2) I've heard a lot of y'all saying that y'all have reread this book a few times. I just want to say thank you so much, there is no higher compliment than hearing that!!! also, if you're someone who has reread this book recently, and you wouldn't mind helping me figure out which plot points I published when I was younger, pls pm me!! 

I never go back a reread what I wrote, and since it's been a few years since I've started this book, I've forgotten what I've actually written and published, and what ideas I've formed that have never actually been written. 

I write a lot of little snippets that I might use in chapters, but it's been so long that I can't remember if the snippets are part of the story or just part of my notes app. this is part of why I haven't finished chapter 37 yet (I can't remember what I've told y'all about james and what I've planned out that hasn't been published yet)

3) I'm a high schooler now, so school is going to get busy at times. please be patient with me as I update :)

I know I'm a rambler, so if you've made it this far, congratulations 🥳

I LOVE Y'ALL SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE YOU'VE SHOWN ME THROUGH THE YEARS I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO ARTICULATE HOW GRATEFUL I AM FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU

be on the lookout for chapter 37!! (pm me if you've reread this book recently and don't mind answering a few questions :)))))

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