𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐀𝐭 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 || 𝐉𝐉 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤

The Pregnancy Test (pt 2)

"What? " you take a look at it "I don't know either! "

"Are you serious? " Jj throws his hands in the air

"Well.. " you look for the instructions "I never took one before! "

"Okay, it's fine. We just have to find the instructions " he helps you look for them

"Look, I know it's supposed to show either two lines, or one line " you sit back for a second "but I don't really know what each one means.. "

"That's what we're trying to figure out,
y/n " he pulls out his phone

"Is it like a COVID test? " you ask after you already gave up

"What? " he forrows his eyebrows

"You know, two lines is positive and one is negative? "

"I'm gonna pretend I didn't hear that.. " he goes back to typing something on his phone

"Fine. But if I'm right, you'll be apologizing later " you look away

"Babe, if you're right, you're pregnant " he explains still typing

"Oh yeah " you get up and sit next to him so you can take a look at what he's typing

"I'm googling it "

"I can see that " you go and sit next to the door, not ready to find out

"Holy crap.. " Jj exhales sharply and looks at you

"What, what? " you shut your eyes closed once more, and hide your face with your hands

"Y-You're pregnant.. " he comes and hugs you even before he finishes that sentence
"You okay? " he asks when he notices the shock on your face

You don't answer. Instead, you hug him tighter, holding his shirt in your fists

You can't believe this. Don't know how to react. Cry or be happy? Do you want it or not?

"It's gonna be okay " he reassures you

~~~

~Jj's Pov~

She finally fell asleep. I think she's sleeping for half an hour or so. She's been worried about when the pogues find out, because, you know, pogues don't lie to each other. It's a rule. Not like the "no pogue on pogue macking' thing, because everybody broke it. Everybody.

Anyway, I feel bad that I can't do anything to help the whole situation

"Jayj? You up? " she lifts her head up to look at me, and I wrap my hands around her waist even tighter

"Yeah " I smile

She just lays her head back on my chest, and as much as I love when she does that, something's off this time

"What are you thinking? " I ask after a while

"Nothing " she sighs

"You still thinking about the baby? " I lean my head to the side to see her face

"Well, yeah, kinda.. "

"Hey, don't worry " I lift her chin up, so she looks at me "we'll figure it out, just rest "

"I can't. I can't stop thinking about it " she admits

"Then, tell me " I let her lay her head back on my chest "What are you thinking? "

"What I'm thinking? " she sits on the bed next to me "that we're too young for this, that we can't do this, that we have to focus on school now because it's for our future " I reach out for her hand and hold it in mine "but I can't do that to the baby "

"What? " I say surprised. I thought we knew what we were gonna do

"Yeah. I mean, it's my baby, Jj. It's our baby " she looks into my eyes

"I know. But I thought that was what you wanted to do " I give her hand a little squeeze

"I didn't want to do that.. " she looks away "I didn't want any of this "

"I know " I nod

"I just wanted us to exist! " she looks back at me

"What do you mean? "

"Look, I know we've been dating for months, but since we got back together, all I wanted was to be with you " she looks down and then back at me

"I want that, too " I move closer "but it's not like we won't be together-"

"No, you don't get it "

"Hey, you can tell me " I move a lock of hair behind her ear

"Okay " she takes a deep breath before talking "When we broke up, it was the worst time of my life. Like, I was miserable. It was really, really bad " y/n pauses for a moment "So, when we got back together, I got back my reality. I was really happy, and I still am, because I'm with you. I wanted to spend as much time with you as possible, and I still do, because I love you. And I don't want that time to be lost so fast.. "

"Y/n.." I sit there processing everything for a moment "Look at me " I say and she looks me in the eyes "I promise that whatever we're gonna do, I'm not gonna let us fall apart. Trust me, I don't want that, either "

"Really? "

"Love, I already told you. Whatever it is, if we're not doing it together, I don't want it " I shake my head with a reassuring smile "and I love you, too "

She laughs and jumps in my arms. Are those butterflies ever gonna go away?

"That was cheesy, huh? " she pulls away from the hug

"I'd call it romantic.. " I smile and she kisses me

I wasn't lying before. If I didn't have her, I don't know what I'd do..