The supposed third mate

Months

It's been a month since they've left I haven't left my room. I miss them.
Two months now that they've been gone it gets worse everyday bella has nightmares every night idk how she can even sleep
Three months I only leave my room for school I don't sleep and only eat twice a week bella has Jake while I'm on my own I have been thinking about going to the reservation to see sam and Paul but idk if they are still there.
Four months and Bella drags me with her to see Jacob today is the day I find out something I didn't know about Sam and Paul and Jacob they are shapeshifters I didn't want to believe it but it was true
It's now been five months and I can't take it anymore I go to the cliffs and jump I don't think I just do. The wave are to strong I pass out when I hit my head I get pulled out by Sam when I come back to realization I just ask him to take me home when I get home I just sit in the shower and cry wishing I wouldn't have been saved bella comes in and ask if I'm ok but I shake my head no
Iris: I miss them so much Bella I tried to off myself today
Bella: Ik Sam told me..I'll be home in a little while ok
Iris: ok.. be safe bella
I get out and change I sit on my bed and cry I cry until I can't anymore but then I hear the front door open I run downstairs hoping it was Bella or dad but I see Alice and Jasper I run into them still crying but hear Jacob shout at Bella so I run outside push him away and drag her inside.
Iris: for me to try is one thing but you no Bella why would you do that after checking on me what's wrong with you
Alice: and what is that god awful wet dog smell
Jasper: I'm going to go to Iris room and get her clothes packed
Iris: I'll go help
After the whole ideal with Bella and Jacob we go to the airport. We land in Italy and just speed to the volterra to save Edward Bella rushes to the clock tower I stay with Jasper and Alice when we get inside the castle looking thing we are being led to aro